Moo,
After reading your last post I will have to suppose that this won't find you but I thought I'd send it off anyway....
I totally hear what you are saying. I too am at the end of my rope. My circumstances are probably much different that yours, but the end result I think is the same. Basically, my life lately has hit somewhat of a down-cycle. I got laid off from my job a couple of months ago--I taught med assisting classes at a vocational school. The economy and job market have hit me hard. I caught on with another school but I now only teach night classes and thus earn wages on a whole twenty hours a week. I have been going into drugstores, pizza joints, etc. trying to get any additional income to be able to pay for secondaries and the like (AMCAS was all on a credit card which I will probably spend the next six months paying off) and all have told me that they won't hire me because they feel a college graduate wouldn't be around long enought to make it worth their while. This is, of course, in addition to the three hundred plus resumes I have sent out. I finally hit rock bottom when I went into a local hospital today to try and fill my time doing some volunteer work. They told me they already had enough volunteers, so basically I can't even give my labor away. This is all at the same time that my girlfriend, and I thought soon to be fiance, moved out, and now won't even return my calls. The only reason she gave before closing the door behind her was that I seemed too fixated on getting into med school. Thus I didn't pay enough attention to her, and she thought it would only get worse when I was in med school. She took all the furniture except for my desk, so now I'm sleeping on the floor. I came out of the gates fast with three interviews. But one is over and didn't go so well, the other doesn't mean much since that school (UTMB) interviews the majority of their applicant pool, and the other, Tulane, is just about the only thing keeping me sane. I come to this board about five times a week and, even though I'm happy for all those getting ahead, I usually end up sad and frustrated because all the schools that have had my completed apps for about a month are now sending out interviews invites and I haven't heard anything from them. And to cap everything off, I called AMCAS today to find out why my app (submitted on 6/25) hasn't been touched, and they said they are missing a bunch of transcripts (3) that they had previously told me they had. I can't even afford to have more sent off. So basically, like you, just to keep my sanity, I have to get away from all this. If interviews come, then great, but I can't bring myself to look forward to them anymore.
I just wanted to say that the time I have spent coming here to this forum has made my premed experience much warmer than I would have ever dreamed possible. You all are awesome and I'm sure you will all make great docs. Best wishes to everyone. I may or may not come back. If I don't, I just wanted to say that I would have been happy to have truly known all of you on more than just a computer screen, be it as a colleague or not.
Take care,
George
