I swear, this test has monopolized my life. I've doing an internship abroad, and I cannot stop thinking about this damn MCAT. I know the score is only so far away, but dammit! I keep reliving the day over and over in my mind.
What sucks even more is that I had to drive almost 3.5 hrs away from home to take the test. The whole way back I went the gauntlet of emotions. At first it was, the PS section made me panic, VR was a mind-f*$@ and then the godawful BS section. I was the last one to leave the test center, I sat there for the full 5 minutes debating whether or not void something. The sweet old lady at the center apologized for making me the last. She told me to go to Hooters and get cold one and relax.
Got in my SUV, called home and didn't know how to feel. Was I happy? Was I relieved? I was a little tired, sweaty, and couldn't put a sentence together. An hour into the drive I realized I was going the wrong damn way! Dammit! Backtracking and MCAT, I felt like stupidity squared.
Then a feeling of being overwhelmed ushered in, followed by an eerie calm and sense of apathy. The closer I got to home the more I kept thinking, how should I be feeling?
I don't know guys, I've told myself that if I get above a 30, there's not a fat rat's ass chance I'm taking it again. 29 I'm debating it, below that I've already been half-assed preparing for another sitting.
Aahhh!