Thats a great point, thanks. I guess my question is, yes i'd love to be one of those cardiac surgeons, but I look around me and realize that the chances are slim. I see plenty of senior surgeons who have done lab work that are doing absolutely nothing with it anymore. I see the disincentives. Work twice as hard and make half as much? Doesn't sound as appealing to anyone in their mid 30s with a wife and kids compared to the mid 20s keen resident. I'm hardworking but i'm not the most hardworking person in my program, so while I'd love to be, I also want to know what are the realistic backups, i.e. what else can a basic science PhD bring to my career if I don't get NIH funded? Will I be able to collaborate with a dedicated researcher and run a joint lab? Will the skills and knowledge from a PhD help me with tech/enterprise? Will it bring me contacts and industry connections that I can leverage? I'm ambitious, I won't lie that part of the appeal of basic science for me is to have the tools to develop and change the field, be at the forefront of tech and development and to leave a legacy. I think i'd be absolutely satisfied if i could even accomplish 1/10th of what people like JH Gibbon Jr., Starzl, Cribier were able to accomplish. Whether or not basic science is even likely to achieve those things in my hands is also an open question for me.
That also goes to point which drives me to do more translational/surgical/large animal type research. I don't want to go up against the dedicated basic scientists and doctors of the world, i know I won't be able to put in the time they can and i believe i can only be dumber than they are. I wonder if gaining skills in a surgical lab and leveraging that might give me the unique advantage to run a lab that way.
re: epi. The biggest selling point of epi is that it can be done anywhere on a shoestring budget but I've done some of that work and just don't find it appealing. I don't believe my own research is worth its salt frankly and yes I agree, I think ultimately i'll struggle. It's probably one of the things I avoid doing the most, in fact i'm procrastinating on it right now.