That's why I'm glad I've decided to do psych. So much less stress about this stuff. I'll still be panicking next year, though.
I know that I want to do Internal Medicine and, all things considered, I'm pretty sure I want to stay here in Tulsa - the Medicine program is well-respected and non-malignant.
I'm so relieved my medicine rotation went well - I was trying not to think of how there was a great deal riding on it. Not that I had to be brilliant as an MS3, but if they like me and want to continue working with me, that's a good thing.
I'm sure that, once again, the shelf exam next week will cause me to blow a grade level - but I'm almost getting used to that.
I was reviewing the scholarship opportunities for the School of Community Medicine. Sure, they'll waive all tuition and fees next year in exchange for a year of service to the underserved in the community. BUT, whether working as a hospitalist will qualify depends on which hospital and your employment has to be approved by the scholarship committee. Also, if you decide not to follow the agreement, they can assess a penalty of up to 100% - in other words, you have to pay back double the money.
I'm going to say thanks, but no thanks. I can just see being in a situation in a down economy where I was offered a great job on the south side of town, but Morton Health Center has one position open that pays a lovely $115K or something like that... and OU says I have to either take the Morton job or pay them back double what they gave me. No way, no how am I giving anybody that much control over my future. I'm willing to carry my fair share of the underserved burden, but I'm too old to spend three or four years making absolute peanuts in a scary part of town before I start my real career. I was really hoping that OU would have a less punitive "out" policy - they implied they probably wouldn't ask for double the money back when I talked to them - but, if it's in the contract, I'm not doing it. That's why I've never considered taking primary care loans, either - the penalties for changing your mind are horrendous - a 10% or maybe even 20% penalty, fine - but, double? Nope.