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I'm sure some of you newer folk have no idea who I am. Don't worry. This isn't for you unless you just want to hear my story.
I haven't hit this forum for several several months, around a year. I used to be on here all the time. Why did I vanish off the face of the Earth (or more specifically this forum)?
I got a job as a professor of psychiatry at U. of Cincinnati. I went from doing a combination of private practice including Suboxone treatment, being a court-doctor, and an attending on a state forensic psychiatric unit to running a geriatric unit at the university hospital, doing some outpatient practice (including Suboxone treatment), being an attending in a PES, and covering for doctors on vacation at the Lindner Center (a private psychiatric facility run by Paul Keck, now affiliated with U of Cincinnati.)
I had a one-year-old daughter, and just two months ago a new son.
In short, my free time to go to this forum went from several hours a day to pretty much nothing. The last month I was on the forum, I was running on fumes.
The state job was so damned easy, and I had no students, I had the time to be on the forum. The forum gave me professional colleagues, an opportunity to teach (and learn). The university job, on the other hand, had me up to my eyeballs in work and stress, and the teaching bug was being fulfilled because they give me students.
Okay, so maybe I just should've posted less often? Why go to nothing? A problem here was that I love being on this forum but knew I had to cut my time on it, especially since a lot of why I love being here was being fulfilled in other ways. In CBT'd myself to try to think less about the forum, and in doing so did the all-or-none approach.
I definitely believe I needed to go to the university. I love psychiatry too much. I was seeing just too much terrible work in the community and being with colleagues that are on the cutting edge, that give a damn, and love teaching has been a welcome change. With few exceptions, I didn't think the attendings I had in residency were good and I wanted to see how I stacked up with the best. Five of the psychiatrists in the department are ranked in the top 100 doctors in the country and I wanted to see what I could learn from them.
Another pro is that I really couldn't gain anything professional for my love of teaching here. I was doing it for the love of it, but at the university I can gain some professional kickbacks that are more tangible. I'm not talking about money, but hands on teaching, having one on one discussions with top doctors in the field and brainstorming with them. Of course, as with any job, there are drawbacks as well. For example, I now wonder if I will be a worse father in this job because the stress level is much worse vs. the state job that I frankly found too easy and had all the time in the world there. I also am not earning as much as I could be if I went private.
Oh well. I think I've hit the mental milestone where I can allow myself to come back here from time to time and be in that healthier medium ground.
I haven't hit this forum for several several months, around a year. I used to be on here all the time. Why did I vanish off the face of the Earth (or more specifically this forum)?
I got a job as a professor of psychiatry at U. of Cincinnati. I went from doing a combination of private practice including Suboxone treatment, being a court-doctor, and an attending on a state forensic psychiatric unit to running a geriatric unit at the university hospital, doing some outpatient practice (including Suboxone treatment), being an attending in a PES, and covering for doctors on vacation at the Lindner Center (a private psychiatric facility run by Paul Keck, now affiliated with U of Cincinnati.)
I had a one-year-old daughter, and just two months ago a new son.
In short, my free time to go to this forum went from several hours a day to pretty much nothing. The last month I was on the forum, I was running on fumes.
The state job was so damned easy, and I had no students, I had the time to be on the forum. The forum gave me professional colleagues, an opportunity to teach (and learn). The university job, on the other hand, had me up to my eyeballs in work and stress, and the teaching bug was being fulfilled because they give me students.
Okay, so maybe I just should've posted less often? Why go to nothing? A problem here was that I love being on this forum but knew I had to cut my time on it, especially since a lot of why I love being here was being fulfilled in other ways. In CBT'd myself to try to think less about the forum, and in doing so did the all-or-none approach.
I definitely believe I needed to go to the university. I love psychiatry too much. I was seeing just too much terrible work in the community and being with colleagues that are on the cutting edge, that give a damn, and love teaching has been a welcome change. With few exceptions, I didn't think the attendings I had in residency were good and I wanted to see how I stacked up with the best. Five of the psychiatrists in the department are ranked in the top 100 doctors in the country and I wanted to see what I could learn from them.
Another pro is that I really couldn't gain anything professional for my love of teaching here. I was doing it for the love of it, but at the university I can gain some professional kickbacks that are more tangible. I'm not talking about money, but hands on teaching, having one on one discussions with top doctors in the field and brainstorming with them. Of course, as with any job, there are drawbacks as well. For example, I now wonder if I will be a worse father in this job because the stress level is much worse vs. the state job that I frankly found too easy and had all the time in the world there. I also am not earning as much as I could be if I went private.
Oh well. I think I've hit the mental milestone where I can allow myself to come back here from time to time and be in that healthier medium ground.
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