SDN Members don't see this ad. (About Ads) I'm not really looking for advice, I just want to publically whine for a minute. And maybe there's a few of you who can relate and will want to join my whiney club. I used to lie awake at night worrying whether I'd be accepted to med school. Now I have been, and I'm thrilled beyond belief. It's what I've always wanted. But now I've taken to lying awake at night upset that I'll be going to med school for the 4 years because the love of my life lives 8,000 miles away. (I used to live abroad). I love him and miss him. I'm totally lame, I readily admit. We broke up awhile ago, but I'm a stubborn romantic who refuses to move on. But I'm not *completely* pathetic. In fairness to me, our break up was more of a "see you later" than a "goodbye" so even if we never get back together I'm still suffering with the knowledge that it's a possibility, however slight. And I'm upset because I'm tying myself down to this country by going to medical school. My lifestyle won't be fluid anymore so I can't globe trot and "see him later" very well. D*mnit. And he can't very well move here either, at least not in the next four years. He just wrote me an email requesting an update and I'm nervous to tell him I was accepted to med school because I don't want to close the door on our relationship. Waah wahh, boo hoo for me. I'll just return to my quiet self pity now and wait for someone to respond with a message like: "Oh shut up, you got into medical school. Just focus on that. The MD curriculum will force him out of your thoughts."