@CatalystikStill in a pickle about my most meaningful (I know, I know...just pick the ones you want. But I really have 4!)
Which is framed best/seems like it contributes better to my medical path? All 4 are incredibly important to me:
1) NIH research: I have not been here long (~8-9 months) and the lab environment is fairly stressful because of the large amount of fighting done by my lab. It is definitely not a low stress department...I have learned a lot but it is a physics laboratory focused on enzyme mechanisms. This has been one of the most meaningful things to me because not only do I love research, but
this was the research activity (out of 4) that showed me that I do not want to pursue a basic research career.
2) NIH shadowing: the one I talked to you earlier about. It has also been short (April), but it has really shown me what specialty I think I want to do and pushed me into finally accepting that medicine is the career I want to pick.
3) Advanced Chemistry TA: I created small review classes for junior/senior level advanced chemistry classes to help the students pass notoriously difficult classes, a program which has continued in my leave. This has been one of my most meaningful because of the hours I put into getting to know the students well. It showed me that I want to move beyond the "behind the scenes" work of just grading to help the students directly (analogous to my decision to leave basic medical research)
4) Fine Arts performer: I did ballet pretty intensively as a kid (3-16), and eventually quit due to bad tendonitis in my knees. I kept up somewhat in HS and college, but not rigorously. I took up fiddling and theatre (mostly directing and doing stage work, though I had a few leads) in its place...both of which I also did intensely, though mostly in HS (gulp). I still played violin in college as a hobby and also did college choir for a term, etc. Basically I have always been involved one way or another in the arts. THis is most meaningful to me beause of how much I care about human expression and understanding the emotions of others via many forms.
Any thoughts? I know that's an earful. I just don't know which would be best to cut...On one hand, research has to be one of my most meaningful, and the NIH is the most rigorous, though the shortest. Shadowing just showed me a specialty I liked and I shadowed physicians I liked. TAing showed me how to overcome awkwardness to interact comfortably with students and help them directly, but this is not directly related to medicine. Fine arts is...well, much older, to be honest.