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So I am half way through my CA-1 year and I am miserable. I am unhappy with anesthesia for many of the standard reasons mentioned on this forum, ie. lack of respect, being beholden to someone else's schedule, difficult surgeons, call etc, but the thing that keeps me up most is the stress of taking care of critically ill people. I really do not think I am cut out to handle life or death situations and the stress of that grates on me daily. I feel very depressed and have a baseline anxiety that is through the roof right now. I am working with a therapist which helps. I can barely get myself out of bed in the morning but the train keeps chugging ahead. I am seriously considering switching specialities, specifically to psychiatry (I was deciding bw gas and psych as an MS3) or pursuing pain management. This is not the ideal choice for me as I am non-traditional, still single and in my mid-30s and just want to move on with my life and start working and find a partner. However, I am really struggling to imagine any situation in which OR anesthesia is a viable career path for me at this point and the thought of suffering through CT, transplant, neuro etc over the next 2.5 years is almost unbearable.
Those of you who felt similarly, how did you deal with it? What did you do? What are my options for non-clinical work? I have pretty sizable debt. Are the fellowships/career paths I am not thinking of?
For those in pain, how easy is it to take chunks of time off? Did anyone pursue pain bc they felt similarly? Does locums exist? Is telehealth an option? Would ideally like a career with flexibility but understand I am not going to get it all.
Thanks for your input.
Those of you who felt similarly, how did you deal with it? What did you do? What are my options for non-clinical work? I have pretty sizable debt. Are the fellowships/career paths I am not thinking of?
For those in pain, how easy is it to take chunks of time off? Did anyone pursue pain bc they felt similarly? Does locums exist? Is telehealth an option? Would ideally like a career with flexibility but understand I am not going to get it all.
Thanks for your input.