That's probably the root of the problem, to be honest.
No matter how much you may like emergency medicine (and I fxcking love EM on good days), the reality is that you are looking for passion whereas everyone else sees you, and intends to treat you like an employee.
Your passion won't matter when your boss calls you in because your metrics aren't where they want them to be.
Your passion won't matter when you have 20 patients in the waiting room while you're fighting with the hospitalist to accept a social admit and EMS pre-notifies you that some full-code 90 year old COPDer is obtunded on CPAP, ETA 4 minutes away.
Your passion won't matter when a belligerent, feces covered inebriate assaults you in your workplace and your employer tries to dissuade you from pressing charges because "the paperwork won't be worth it".
None of the aforementioned examples are hyperbole. Every single one is an event that has happened to me. In. the. last. 6. months.
Every medical student thinking of EM should listen to this debate from SMACC DUB where they discuss whether or not Emergency Medicine is a failed paradigm. The reality is the job we sell medical students emphatically IS NOT the job you're going to be doing once you graduate residency. If you get a job at all.
Every single resident and attending on this forum is somone who, like you, thought "they couldn't see themselves doing anything else". You, MS4, are unfortunately not special or unique in this regard - we have all said something along the lines of what you've said here. Several years on, most of us, if given the chance, would probably do something else had we known what we know now.
And I say this as someone who went to a very well regarded residency and secured what many would consider a "good" job upon graduating residency.