to basically render a patient unconscious, stop thier breathing and paralize a patient while you allow someone else (a surgeon; glorified butcher) cut them up...is something amazing along with highly stressful.
I remember when I first began residency I was stressed out like Im sure many were. I remember waking up because my wife would give me a hugg in the middle of the night and i would push her aside still half asleep telling her "I have to intubate I have to intubate!"
She got tired of hearing this esp after wanting to cuddle...so she used to respond "stick the TUBE up your butt!"
Anesthesia is very stressful career. Its only now after entering my last year of residency do I feel I am beginning to appreciate anesthesia. Im sure after a few more years I will think once again that I am just begining to appreciate anesthesia as an art.
Just the other day I was thrown into a room...sick patient, surgeon after opening the belly kept repeating...ive never seen anything like this before...and patient base deficit close to -11 and hemodynamically unstable.
I managed the case relatively well and remember the feeling after the case and walking down the halls..."kicked a.zz"
Relying less on attendings, running my own show within the OR at least on my side of the drapes is a sense of accomplishment, pride, challenge, etc which I think overcomes the stress which is inevitible
I think the bottom line is make it a game. Just like a rock climber...feels stress but something about that adrenaline rush (HIGH NE, CORTISOL) is somewhat pleasant in a different perspective.
Im currently creating a website in this same manner. To be great a what we do...collectively. Hope this helps! Rock on
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