suicidal ideation

Hey guys, new here but I really need some anonymous advice. Just started my third year of medical school and am freaking out b/c I got a 224 on Step 1. Unfortunately my school is P/F the first two years (even though I was a standard deviation above on most tests, no one will ever know about it)...

I have been dealing with severe mental illness and suicidal ideation since early high school. It has affected my academic success greatly then and now (class withdrawals, 'no credit' grades, taking time off) and I am still receiving treatment. I have heard that this is a subject that should not...