Please stop. People wanted to help you, but this raving is not going to help you at all.
Although the internet feels anonymous, it is not. You have given a lot of personal information in this thread that may be recognized by people in ADCOMs if they visit these forums. 17Ws is very striking, and I believe you also listed your ECs in another thread. I would not want myself associated with suicide threats and raving at people who give advice I do not want to hear. I suggest you stop posting unless it will be rational things and maybe edit out your threats, and hopefully people that quoted your threats will edit them out too so you don't have this out there for people to see.
Again, people came here to help you. You are not a highly qualified person to be a doctor at the moment due to your mental instability, but you can probably become a qualified person if you stop overloading yourself and get therapy. I suggest taking a leave from school, getting a regular 9-5 job somewhere like a deli where you need to interact with people regularly, and getting therapy until you feel ready to be a student again.