A heart-wrenching blog post about an OHSU grad who can't match.

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"At about $45,000 - $52,000 dollars a year for 80 hours a week of work, Medical Residents are a bargain"

No they aren't. They can't actually do much to make money for hospital and as such don't command much value.

her fault for taking 400k in debt and doing bad on step 1 or whatever. I remember mimelim had a post about how we try to weed people out as early as possible to avoid things like this, but it fails sometimes, I'd say she's a clear example. honestly just sounds like an intelligence problem to me and now she's butthurt

"overeducated-underpaid Portlanders"

lolololol west coast delusion ftw
 
"At about $45,000 - $52,000 dollars a year for 80 hours a week of work, Medical Residents are a bargain"

No they aren't. They can't actually do much to make money for hospital and as such don't command much value.
lolwut
 
It’s hard enough to be older, poorer, a single mother and of mixed heritage (for the record, until recently I was a single mom who had raised a happy and healthy now 20 year old daughter). When OHSU cancelled their student diversity program I was a bit shocked, but not surprised. I never realized much benefit from it anyway. I do wonder if my pregnancy while interviewing last year affected their decision. This year I was nursing and despite having a spot-on husband who wanted to take the role of Mr. Mom, it is possible that the family-in-tow affected my career opportunities. No program could ever legally admit to this, but the question does linger.

[...] "Isn’t OHSU the shining beacon on the hill that represents what is good and forward thinking about health care in our state? Portland is the city that works hard on its reputation for being inclusive. Don’t we take care of our own? Not really, not unless you come from money. If someone would have told me that my chances of getting into and succeeding at medical school were based on what my parents did for a living, I wouldn’t even have applied.

[...] The Association of American Medical Colleges is well aware of this problem. The average medical student in the U.S. comes from a family in the top 15% of income earners. I come from a poor family. In poor families you become a nurse if you want to aspire to a better life.

It appears that she is blaming racism, sexism, anti-familyism, classism, elitism, etc. as reasons why she didn't match 2 years in a row.

Nowhere in that post did I read once what her grades or scores were, I'm just to accept that she is being discriminated against?
 
I agree with the reddit post commenting on this blog. Notice the importance of personality-related factors in program rankings:

Ophthalmologist here. I am clinical faculty at the local medical university. This means I am in private practice but I am involved with the residency program because I like teaching. I give lectures, supervise clinics, and operate with the residents. I also participate in the resident selection process. While I do not have any role in the final rank list that is submitted to SF Match (ophthalmology and a few other specialties uses its own rank system but it operates the same way) I am privy to the discussions that take place determining who is where on that list. I may be able to offer a perspective on her experience.

First, there are a lot of truths in this piece. There is a problem with a system that leaves any US senior unmatched. That is a much longer discussion and one that does not have an easy answer in today's climate. However, as others have pointed out, there must be more to this story than is being presented. When your own program will not take you for a prelim surgery spot you have seriously pissed someone off. I have sat in candidate interviews (our program does panel interviews) where an AOA, 260 step 1, Ivy graduate will rub everyone in the room the wrong way to the point where the decision is made then and there not to even rank them. The comment about a rural program asking about what outdoor activities she enjoys hits the mark as to her lack of understanding of the process. When we are interviewing you, we know you can do it. What we want to know is will you be a good fit. That is all. Nothing more. Will you mesh with the faculty and other residents? Will you enjoy it here? A happy resident is a good resident. We ranked an applicant in the top ten (or we planned to do so) with 203 step one because he made us all laugh. He was academically exemplary in every other way, he had just had a bad day when he took step 1. He ended up matching to our program. My point is, a failed step 1 should not preclude getting a spot as long as it was passed the second time around. What is telling is the perceived lack of support from OHSU. Your school should be playing every angle to get their grads a spot. It does not look good for them when their grads don't match - sort of a mark of shame. The scramble is when favors are called in and phone calls are made. It should have taken one call from a dean or program chair calling and saying to a peer with an open spot "you need to take this person" to get her a spot SOMEWHERE. Also a truly superlative letter of recommendation will trump almost any "blemish". A formulaic or "good" recommendation isn't worth the paper it is printed on. Also, I give recs that have not been seen by the applicant more weight - I feel they are more honest and objective, than those that have. MS4s reading this, pick your recs very carefully. Waive your right to read them but be damn sure the person writing it thinks you are a rockstar. From a sort-of insider perspective to this process there is a disconnect between her perception of the situation and how it played out. When no one will give you a spot, not even your own program, there is a reason and it is more than just a failed step 1.

In conclusion, this was an nicely penned, but ignorant, piece. Casting blame on the system (which is admittedly very broken) but taking no hard look on what she could/should have done differently helps nothing. If it was a piece just to vent then it accomplished its goal. I have nothing but sympathy for her situation. If I could offer her any advice it would be apply again and do not give up. Fix what is lacking and keep trying, it will happen for her eventually. Programs have openings all the time as people drop out, change their minds, etc. Be available when a spot opens.
 
What even is in Portland anyway. Rain? Vampires?
I thought Portland was in Maine not Oregon, when I first read that blog I was super confused and had to google OHSU. Oops
 
Sounds like someone who should've never been accepted to medical school.
 
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Sounds like someone who should've never been accepted to medical school. 90% chance she only got in because OHSU had to fill their single mom diversity quota.
Let's assume you are correct - there are plenty of people who get into med school on various race-based or income-based or whatever-based programs with scores that wouldn't otherwise qualify them for even the lowest tier program.

Still, I would wager the vast majority of them (>95%) still are able to match - so I think this person's situation is a little more complex than a single failed class or a very low Step I score. There is something wrong with this picture.
 
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It appears that she is blaming racism, sexism, anti-familyism, classism, elitism, etc. as reasons why she didn't match 2 years in a row.

Nowhere in that post did I read once what her grades or scores were, I'm just to accept that she is being discriminated against?
Blame everyone else society that democrats want to create
 
I think this person's situation is a little more complex than a single failed class or a very low Step I score. There is something wrong with this picture.

Agreed -- if your surgery program has 3 Prelim positions available in SOAP and they didn't offer you one of them, something's wrong. Most likely that deficit is a personality issue rather than her age, motherhood, race, or academic record.
 
"At about $45,000 - $52,000 dollars a year for 80 hours a week of work, Medical Residents are a bargain"

No they aren't. They can't actually do much to make money for hospital and as such don't command much value.

I hope that's sarcasm.
 
Go read about this on the thread over in pre-allo. People have found inconsistencies in her story. She has been commenting in a Reddit thread about her blog over in r/medicine. Username is xylinus or something.
 
White guys with dreadlocks and girls who make their own vegan jewelry. They fled south from Seattle in their VW camper vans when people with jobs showed up in the 90s

Now that people with jobs are slowly creeping into PDX as well, I wonder where they'll go next? Flee to Eugene? Meet the California emigrants traveling north in Fresno? Move east to Bozeman?
 
Sad story, but agreed, there's way more to this story than she is letting on. It never ceases to amaze me how someone who fails an exam still insists that they are more intelligent than their peers and a good test-taker. It's stories like these that I want my 35+ year old friends seeking a second career to see. PA all the way is what I say. Luckily for this woman the new student loan reforms will allow some benefit, but it will be years in the making. She's dead wrong about the lack of jobs out there. There's plenty of positions with decent income at pharma, and I'm still getting emails from consulting firms even while I'm working on my fellowship applications.
 
Agreed -- if your surgery program has 3 Prelim positions available in SOAP and they didn't offer you one of them, something's wrong. Most likely that deficit is a personality issue rather than her age, motherhood, race, or academic record.
I know that the schools are heavily invested in our success, but at what point is it decided that a person doesn't have what it takes? None of us know the true details of her story or the handful of students on my campus during the course of my medical education that had repeated failures, remediations, and delayed graduation. And I know that scores alone cannot determine the quality of a physician but I wonder when it becomes irresponsible for a program to promote someone that struggles every step of the way. There seems to be a general consensus that everyone who starts, despite their struggles, is entitled to finish. I'm not trying to be antagonistic or anything. I'm just curious.
 
Sad story, but agreed, there's way more to this story than she is letting on. It never ceases to amaze me how someone who fails an exam still insists that they are more intelligent than their peers and a good test-taker. It's stories like these that I want my 35+ year old friends seeking a second career to see. PA all the way is what I say. Luckily for this woman the new student loan reforms will allow some benefit, but it will be years in the making. She's dead wrong about the lack of jobs out there. There's plenty of positions with decent income at pharma, and I'm still getting emails from consulting firms even while I'm working on my fellowship applications.

My thoughts immediately. The author's sense of entitlement was very clear to me, and despite her explicitly accepting responsibility for doing poor, she still used a host of excuses. I'm sure they're all true, but from someone who also has ADHD and totally empathizes with the fear of stigma, it's BS to not seek help the first month of medical school. Studying for 8 hours straight off of medication? I can think of few things more painful. This indicated to me that she's just isn't someone who takes the initiative to identify and solve problems. Kind of important for a doc.
 
My thoughts immediately. The author's sense of entitlement was very clear to me, and despite her explicitly accepting responsibility for doing poor, she still used a host of excuses. I'm sure they're all true, but from someone who also has ADHD and totally empathizes with the fear of stigma, it's BS to not seek help the first month of medical school. Studying for 8 hours straight off of medication? I can think of few things more painful. This indicated to me that she's just isn't someone who takes the initiative to identify and solve problems. Kind of important for a doc.

ie she's just not intelligent
 
ie she's just not intelligent

I think that's a bit too broad. She is clearly a very good writer.

Some people were just taught/conditioned deal with problems poorly.
 
Now that people with jobs are slowly creeping into PDX as well, I wonder where they'll go next? Flee to Eugene? Meet the California emigrants traveling north in Fresno? Move east to Bozeman?

Please not Eugene. We have enough hippies here, if not more than Portland!
 
I know that the schools are heavily invested in our success, but at what point is it decided that a person doesn't have what it takes? None of us know the true details of her story or the handful of students on my campus during the course of my medical education that had repeated failures, remediations, and delayed graduation. And I know that scores alone cannot determine the quality of a physician but I wonder when it becomes irresponsible for a program to promote someone that struggles every step of the way. There seems to be a general consensus that everyone who starts, despite their struggles, is entitled to finish. I'm not trying to be antagonistic or anything. I'm just curious.

I agree, if my future success were in doubt early on, I would want to know. Getting all of the way to the end and then be left hanging would be devastating. Although certainly, if you are failing important exams, doing poorly, etc., there have to be some clues along the way.
 
What even is in Portland anyway. Rain? Vampires?
I thought Portland was in Maine not Oregon, when I first read that blog I was super confused and had to google OHSU. Oops

there is a portland, maine
 
I'm fairly certain the OP of that reddit post is another account by her or someone very close to her.
If you'll notice someone claiming to be her has also posted... and just keeps digging.

Even if it isn't (and no reason to think it isn't the writing is the exact same content and style as the blog), the fact that she hasn't deleted this may be the final nail for her. My own academic record hasn't been blemish free, but there's no way in hell I'm going to talk about it on the internet... especially on a blog that uses my own name.
 
I don't find it to be very "heart-wrenching." I would classify it more as "whining, entitled woman demonstrates poor insight and self-assessment."

even those without insight suffer... in fact the lack of insight is usually a cause. Doesn't make the suffering any less painful.
 
I re-read this for the first time in a couple of days, and wow, I'm just blown away. She has strong writing skills but really seems to be lacking in the thinking department. She really does seem to think that she's Jesus reincarnate what with her nursing experience and work as a mom.

I read it and all I can do is double facepalm. The whole last paragraph is especially painful. That she thinks "less people would've died" if she were able to secure a residency position "because she would've saved lives" is just... wow. If she came in with that kind of attitude, no wonder the four interviews she had resulted in a goose egg.
 
even those without insight suffer... in fact the lack of insight is usually a cause. Doesn't make the suffering any less painful.

Agreed, but if the goal is to somehow solicit sympathy or illustrate a failing system (as she seems to do) with a tossed in dash of "these people NEED ME" using her extreme outlier anecdote, she has failed miserably.
 
Agreed, but if the goal is to somehow solicit sympathy or illustrate a failing system (as she seems to do) with a tossed in dash of "these people NEED ME" using her extreme outlier anecdote, she has failed miserably.

Just think of her as one of your future borderline patients.

Suffering BECAUSE of her lack of insight.
 
There are stories of unmatched students that are genuinely troubling, unlucky, and/or sad. From her own report this woman's doesn't seem to be one of them. She is very unrepresentative.
 
I know that the schools are heavily invested in our success, but at what point is it decided that a person doesn't have what it takes? None of us know the true details of her story or the handful of students on my campus during the course of my medical education that had repeated failures, remediations, and delayed graduation. And I know that scores alone cannot determine the quality of a physician but I wonder when it becomes irresponsible for a program to promote someone that struggles every step of the way. There seems to be a general consensus that everyone who starts, despite their struggles, is entitled to finish. I'm not trying to be antagonistic or anything. I'm just curious.

There is no such general consensus. If there was, then 100% of every medical school would graduate. That's not what happens. People do get dismissed for academic problems. Generally though, if you do well enough to make it to med school, you probably have the intelligence to finish and most people realize how much is on the line, so they bring their A game to pass if nothing else.
 
usually I think its cute when lifelong academics with no real world experience whine and complain about...the real world - but she should know better given her background. Oh well.
 
Blame everyone else society that democrats want to create

There is difference between not taking responsibility for your actions or inactions and shedding light on blatant defects in society. Some would rather put their heads in the sand because those defects don't affect them personally. Imagine a world where all people actually understood what people different from themselves have to go through.
 
There is difference between not taking responsibility for your actions or inactions and shedding light on blatant defects in society. Some would rather put their heads in the sand because those defects don't affect them personally. Imagine a world where all people actually understood what people different from themselves have to go through.

definition of naivety
 
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