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Hi, all! PGY-1 surgical resident here. I just have a few thoughts I would like to voice concerning a recent post "Clinical Rotation from Hell." Many responders were verbally eviscerating OP, somehow commenting on his or her personal integrity, ethics, etc. having never met him/her and judging him/her off of ONE singular decision discussed over an Internet forum. We must all consider that in the times of COVID things are complicated; gone are the days of black-and-white, Machiavellian decisions. While many a medicine program may find it abhorrent to come to work sick pre-COVID and post-COVID, surgery programs are not like this. You are often judged and considered "a baby," being "dramatic," or a poor teammate if you call out because you are sick. In the times of COVID, this puts one in an extremely difficult position as you do not want to be a bad teammate or appear "soft" for calling out yet you are terrified you could potentially have COVID and put the whole team at risk. I had to call out to get tested and was lambasted by someone I considered my best friend for being "lazy." Meanwhile, I was also being verbally assuaged by one of my EM friends who said I was "selfish" for not getting calling in a day earlier to get tested when I had very mild symptoms. Medical student grades revolve primarily around evals at some schools; I was kept from an A in my family practice rotation just because the attending who did my eval gave me all 3/4's (standard for a very first rotation of 3rd year), which = an 85% eval grade. OP could have been worried that calling out would = even worse eval score and just not known what to do in the heat of the moment. It is not ok to attack someone's character that you have never worked with off of one not so great decision; haven't you ever made a bad decision? Please go find me someone who hasn't made a mistake or bad decision. You are not a bad human being based off your mistakes; your character is determined by HOW YOU REACT/ MOVE FORWARD from said mistakes.
I think the more appropriate take aways from this aforementioned discussion (if you can call being a coward and lambasting someone you don't even know over a computer a discussion) are as follows:
1) Medical students, please remember that you are not essential team members; essential meaning that you are not a paid team member overseeing patient care. Call out if you feel sick at all. I know this will be difficult (especially if you are not from a silver spoon upbringing like me and are accustomed to the blue collar mentality of only calling out if you are hemorrhaging blood or dying etc), however this will be best for everyone. Some medical schools normalize this; some don't. Just keep in perspective that there's more to be lost if you are unfortunately positive and unnecessarily expose others. Nobody cares about your grades once you get into residency, and you will get a spot even with a B on your transcript. Also know that "bad" evals are not the end all be all. I had a trauma surgeon on my general surgery rotation who gave me the worst eval I've ever received. I cried endlessly for a week and was terrified that it would keep me from getting into a surgery residency. What happened? I got a B in the class. My school didn't even include the bad parts of the eval in my MSPE, because as my dean stated, "This is the only bad eval you've had and your others are very strong. It is clearly an outlier. This happens. You can't make everyone like you." I got interviews. I got a surgical residency spot. I lost countless hours of time crying and worrying over something that didn't matter; learn from my error.
2) Residents, I think it's best to just call out and get tested ASAP if you feel sick. Obviously, this depends on your program but while I was verbally assuaged by "friends" I at least knew I wasn't giving my preceptor COVID so she could go home and infect her husband with Parkinson's. Better safe than sorry. Better verbal insults than being stigmatized as "selfish" or some other naiive, overly negative judgements re: one's character based on a single lapse in judgement.
3) In the confusing, complicated times that COVID has brought us, instead of judging each other and being fast to attack other's character for simply doing or thinking different from us, maybe we should show more kindness and compassion. Firstly, we are supposed to be heal care providers aka individuals with the utmost compassion for humanity. Secondly, it is hard to know what is "right" to do when COVID has created such daunting and confusing times for all of us. Kindness and compassion will solve more than aggression and keyboard warrioring.
Best regards to all. May we work together to make these times simpler.
I think the more appropriate take aways from this aforementioned discussion (if you can call being a coward and lambasting someone you don't even know over a computer a discussion) are as follows:
1) Medical students, please remember that you are not essential team members; essential meaning that you are not a paid team member overseeing patient care. Call out if you feel sick at all. I know this will be difficult (especially if you are not from a silver spoon upbringing like me and are accustomed to the blue collar mentality of only calling out if you are hemorrhaging blood or dying etc), however this will be best for everyone. Some medical schools normalize this; some don't. Just keep in perspective that there's more to be lost if you are unfortunately positive and unnecessarily expose others. Nobody cares about your grades once you get into residency, and you will get a spot even with a B on your transcript. Also know that "bad" evals are not the end all be all. I had a trauma surgeon on my general surgery rotation who gave me the worst eval I've ever received. I cried endlessly for a week and was terrified that it would keep me from getting into a surgery residency. What happened? I got a B in the class. My school didn't even include the bad parts of the eval in my MSPE, because as my dean stated, "This is the only bad eval you've had and your others are very strong. It is clearly an outlier. This happens. You can't make everyone like you." I got interviews. I got a surgical residency spot. I lost countless hours of time crying and worrying over something that didn't matter; learn from my error.
2) Residents, I think it's best to just call out and get tested ASAP if you feel sick. Obviously, this depends on your program but while I was verbally assuaged by "friends" I at least knew I wasn't giving my preceptor COVID so she could go home and infect her husband with Parkinson's. Better safe than sorry. Better verbal insults than being stigmatized as "selfish" or some other naiive, overly negative judgements re: one's character based on a single lapse in judgement.
3) In the confusing, complicated times that COVID has brought us, instead of judging each other and being fast to attack other's character for simply doing or thinking different from us, maybe we should show more kindness and compassion. Firstly, we are supposed to be heal care providers aka individuals with the utmost compassion for humanity. Secondly, it is hard to know what is "right" to do when COVID has created such daunting and confusing times for all of us. Kindness and compassion will solve more than aggression and keyboard warrioring.
Best regards to all. May we work together to make these times simpler.