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I dont think I have it in me to repeat a whole year, for a single failed class, and take on the financial burden of student loans sooner than anticipated on a career path I cant fully see myself in, in a university that i'm fundamentally disappointed in for various related and unrelated reasons. I am obviously also disappointed in myself as well but I know in my heart I did give this my all and its disheartening that it wasn't enough. The only thing thats keeping me from flat out walking away is 1- out of respect for the DECADE I have spent trying to make it in, And 2- Fear- fear of not being able to find something semi decent with this bio degree and then regretting my decision to leave. I feel completely lost and dont even know what kinds of jobs dental or medical school dropouts seek and successfully manage to get.I dont know if my reasons for staying are enough to stay and what guarantees I wont have these feelings to leave down the line when I'd be up to my neck in loans.
Below is some relevant background info:
So I had wanted to be a dentist for as long as I can remember, for a multitude of reasons. After 2 cycles of rejections I finally got accepted on my third try.
To my surprise I got not one but 2 acceptances!! I was beyond happy and my parents and little sister were so proud, it was a wonderful feeling. In the time I spent in between application cycles (total 4 years) I did a variety of jobs I hated and ultimately saw a level of success with a company I started. The income from that and finally deciding to sell the company allowed me to secure a condo and pay for the first 2 years of school. I was so relieved I could avoid student loans for at least those first years.
......fast forward to the first semester of dental school; skinning and decapitating a human corpse and dissecting in areas not even relevant to general dentistry. Psychologically it was so difficult for me, that despite me doing everything I possibly could I did not pass the class. At this point I had already realized I HATE the sound metal instruments on teeth, like its the equivalent of nails to a chalk board for me. I was depressed and anxious all the time with panic attacks and all. I later found out that secretly many of my classmates and many of you were/are going through the same struggles. I didnt particularly enjoy sim lab but was decent at it and I wasn't overall excited to be in clinic like my classmates. I was ready to just leave abruptly without a plan on so many occasion, but I was ultimately convinced by the deans office to stay and was told if I passed everything I could just remediate the failed class in the summer.
Spring semester was not easy but it was night and day compared to the first semester. I managed to pass all my classes. I was so relieved and although I lost my passion for dentistry, its still a super secure field and I thought 3 years will just fly by. BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTT, although I only failed one class, I was slapped in the face by an email letting me know I was being given the "opportunity" to re-do my DS1 year. I called and called multiple people in the deans office to get some explanation but they were all unavailable for the following 2 days (graduation preparations apparently). I fanatically calculated my GPA and nothing was making sense, I semi relaxed and though surely it was a mistake. Finally I got an email reply from someone and we broke down my grades. Turns out I got an 80 in a class, which I thought meant a B, but in this class anything between 70 and 82 is a C.... Meaning that even with remediation of the cadaver class I won't have a 2.0 required GPA because they only allow you to get a C in a remediation course.
Below is some relevant background info:
So I had wanted to be a dentist for as long as I can remember, for a multitude of reasons. After 2 cycles of rejections I finally got accepted on my third try.
To my surprise I got not one but 2 acceptances!! I was beyond happy and my parents and little sister were so proud, it was a wonderful feeling. In the time I spent in between application cycles (total 4 years) I did a variety of jobs I hated and ultimately saw a level of success with a company I started. The income from that and finally deciding to sell the company allowed me to secure a condo and pay for the first 2 years of school. I was so relieved I could avoid student loans for at least those first years.
......fast forward to the first semester of dental school; skinning and decapitating a human corpse and dissecting in areas not even relevant to general dentistry. Psychologically it was so difficult for me, that despite me doing everything I possibly could I did not pass the class. At this point I had already realized I HATE the sound metal instruments on teeth, like its the equivalent of nails to a chalk board for me. I was depressed and anxious all the time with panic attacks and all. I later found out that secretly many of my classmates and many of you were/are going through the same struggles. I didnt particularly enjoy sim lab but was decent at it and I wasn't overall excited to be in clinic like my classmates. I was ready to just leave abruptly without a plan on so many occasion, but I was ultimately convinced by the deans office to stay and was told if I passed everything I could just remediate the failed class in the summer.
Spring semester was not easy but it was night and day compared to the first semester. I managed to pass all my classes. I was so relieved and although I lost my passion for dentistry, its still a super secure field and I thought 3 years will just fly by. BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTT, although I only failed one class, I was slapped in the face by an email letting me know I was being given the "opportunity" to re-do my DS1 year. I called and called multiple people in the deans office to get some explanation but they were all unavailable for the following 2 days (graduation preparations apparently). I fanatically calculated my GPA and nothing was making sense, I semi relaxed and though surely it was a mistake. Finally I got an email reply from someone and we broke down my grades. Turns out I got an 80 in a class, which I thought meant a B, but in this class anything between 70 and 82 is a C.... Meaning that even with remediation of the cadaver class I won't have a 2.0 required GPA because they only allow you to get a C in a remediation course.