seriouslyphd
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Hi all, I hope it’s okay to post here to seek some perspective or advice. I’m an advanced psychology PhD student with a little more than 2 years left of training. I’m feeling really unhappy with this path, and have been for about a year. Basically, I regularly find myself dreading the work (teaching, therapy, assessment, supervision, research) with a few bright spots when I’ve had a salient session with a client, for example. I often feel overwhelmed and inadequate nearly always, strained and stressed, I cry often, and I’m just not in a good space mentally or emotionally (anxiety, depression). A growth edge for me is awareness of perfectionistic tendencies, and despite efforts to be gentle and understanding with myself, I’m still struggling with it, and feeling bad about my work and myself given the genuine weightiness of the work, and a developing skillset. I’m unhappy with both the work itself and my life at this point, as training takes a lot of my time, energy, and headspace. It feels like I’m operating out of a sunk cost fallacy, being too afraid to leave and do something else after all of this hard work and sacrifice. I don’t have any debt, so that is not an issue, but I’m absolutely broke and I have no clue what I’d pursue otherwise, and I feel fear about the increasingly troubling economic situation at hand, making psychology, and the achievement of relative financial comfort, attractive, despite how poorly I’ve been feeling. Has anyone felt this way during their training and pushed through, to either positive or negative effect? I’m in therapy, but my therapist is obviously not providing their personal perspective, and I’d like to hear from others who can share their thoughts. Please be gentle with me if you can. I’m in a vulnerable spot. Thank you.