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If I pass step2ck by May 2011, I will be 45 yrs old applying for a residency. I am friendly with a doc who finished med school when he was 22 and has been a trauma surgeon (vietnam and post vietnam) for 44+ years. He is working as long as possible and does not plan to retire until he is forced to. I marvel at his health. I have good health.
But I am a woman and I hate to say this "but the system is beating me down'.
It is all I can do to pass these exams and get up and go forward. There are times when I feel like staying home in a country house and knitting and living off the land. yet, I am somehow in a world where I will never have to cook another meal for myself if I do not want to.
I have decided that I do not want to work for the government. I would rather learn acupuncture and focus on wellness issues for anyone who encounters me in practice.
My life is out of balance and I do not know how to put it in balance. I lost a 'love of my life' in a tragic accident in Africa in my 20's; I was in a relationship for almost 14 years and it fell apart because someone was competing with a dead person.
I have come back to the small town I grew up in and everyone is married and I have no idea how I fit in.
I feel like a misfit and do not know where my 'family is', outside my family.
In essence, by virtue of passing tests, I have to interact with one world. and noone says I have to stay in the first class world (I like to step out of it).
Is anyone else tipytoeing around the world right now?
But I am a woman and I hate to say this "but the system is beating me down'.
It is all I can do to pass these exams and get up and go forward. There are times when I feel like staying home in a country house and knitting and living off the land. yet, I am somehow in a world where I will never have to cook another meal for myself if I do not want to.
I have decided that I do not want to work for the government. I would rather learn acupuncture and focus on wellness issues for anyone who encounters me in practice.
My life is out of balance and I do not know how to put it in balance. I lost a 'love of my life' in a tragic accident in Africa in my 20's; I was in a relationship for almost 14 years and it fell apart because someone was competing with a dead person.
I have come back to the small town I grew up in and everyone is married and I have no idea how I fit in.
I feel like a misfit and do not know where my 'family is', outside my family.
In essence, by virtue of passing tests, I have to interact with one world. and noone says I have to stay in the first class world (I like to step out of it).
Is anyone else tipytoeing around the world right now?