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any of u know of someone who had to drop out of med school due to severe panic attacks and anxiety. I had to take a leave of absence but it extended too long cause my parents dont 'think its a real disease and only a mind thing' . I guess i cant expect more they not from america and they never finished anything past high school and i guess they think pyschiatry is only for the crazy. Anyhow my anxiety got sooooooooo bad and worse since my leave of absence because instead of getting medical and financial support from my family to get treatment they pretty much just all looked down on me like some loser. I even get looks of disgust like go get a job instead of sitting here and sleeping and bla bla, as if its in my hands. I seriously cant explain why this is handicapping me so bad and i dont have the energy or even feel the benefit of trying to explain it more to my parents cause it wont go anywhere. My mom thinks rest will get me better and my dad just doesnt want to spend a buck on me. I didnt expect much since i lived on my own since 16 and was financially independent and had to go thru alot of obstacles in my life on my own and wasnt used to depending on anyone for anything. But i seriously cant get myself out of this anxiety/panic attacks, its the most horrible thing that happened to me, i think i had it b4 but i repressed it and ignored it so long cause i used to think the same that its nothing but a mind game or just stress everyone else gets or bla bla, but it peaked out to a point where every small thing puts me in panic and anxiety, i cant sleep for the life of me, i overstress everything, instead of facing stuff i just get into total panic mood and try to sleep it off. I feel like i am getting worse everyday, and a year + already passed and i feel like life is passing me by quick. I cant even explain it to my friends or tell alot of them cause i feel embarrassed, i feel so ashamed almost , i am broke, out of school and have this huge problem of anxiety and panic attacks that my family doesnt even think is a real disease or didnt help me get thru it and life is passing me by. Any advice ,similiar stories, or help anyone can offer what so ever, it would be extremely appreciated.
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