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Originally posted by hihihi
It's about time I heard someone with the same viewpoint as me on this board. I don't know why I read the messages on this board....most people here are so die-hard medicine...it makes me sick. It's admirable, but it makes me sick. We need doctors with that kind of drive, but it still makes me sick. Is there anyone out there that just wants to have a regular career in medicine, similar to any other non-medical job? I am tired of reading posts like......"Is my 33 MCAT good enough?"...."Should I go to Harvard or Hopkins?"....."I can't decide between neuroradiology and opthalmology/retinal specialist?" Give me a break. Honestly, do these people have lives? I long for the day when I can go home at night and leave my job at the office. I long for the day when I can take an afternoon off without feeling like I am letting the medical community down.
My class is full of gung-ho medical students. I don't get it. There is a base knowledge that medical students need to attain, I agree. But these people are just psycho/anal about everything. I am almost proud to be a slacker.
When it comes down to it...it's all about money. Some people admit it, and some people feel ashamed to admit it. People always say that money doesn't matter. Bull S__T! You can't tell me that you enjoy giving a significant amount of your adult life...along with a significant amount of your family life throughout your career....to help strangers with their health. If you put strangers health and well-being before your own life and family life....I say you are crazy. It's not worth it.
By the way...I am a first year med student. Any guesses on how my attitude will be after two more years of this crap?
Thanks for the vent.
Originally posted by powermd
I definitely agree with some of the sentiments expressed in this thread. I'm a third year just finishing up clinical rotations, and I've just about had it with this ****. A few of my peaves:
1) Unclear expectations of students: Students don't have any real responsibility for patients (on most rotations). You may have patients that are supposedly 'your own', but the real responsibility falls on the intern or resident. They write the orders and communicate with the attending. Only on my medicine and ER rotations was I able to function more or less like an intern. Your only 'responsibility' is to be at the beck and call of your residents. It's impossible to know when you've done enough and it's okay to relax, read, or go home. It's very rare that a resident tells you when your work is done. This wouldn't be much of a problem if other students were willing to draw a line in the sand at when a certain level of participation is enough- but most students are so paranoid about evaluations, they'll forego sleep and reading time just to feign enthusiasm. On my current rotation- ob/gyn, I've just about surpassed the point at which I am no longer willing to pretend to care. I stand by my hatred of scrubbing into OR cases that include no meaningful participation. I stand by my desire, when I'm tired, to just go to sleep when on call, assuming the sky isn't falling in L&D. The residents get to sleep when there's no work to do, why can't students?
2) Shelf exams: Clinical work must always be balanced with reading time to study for exams. My class is extraordinarily competitive, so you really can't slack off studying for these exams if you want to beat the mean. Because these responsibilities must be balanced, it's hard not to always feel like you're not doing enough of one or the other. In the end, neither are any fun because you're constantly stressed about doing more of the other.
3) Lectures and scheduled activities: I'm sick of being told where and when I have to be somewhere, to do something that invariably wastes my time. This includes most lectures, conferences, morning reports, and sign-out rounds. It really galls me when an attending will make a point of asking where a particular student is, who is not present. Apparently this happened to me yesterday. I'm taking night call for L&D, which starts at 5pm. However, L&D has sign outs from 5-5:45pm. Students on both day and night call are forced to be there, even though they never participate, or learn anything. My clinic finished at 5pm, so I went to quickly eat dinner in the cafeteria, because I might not get to eat otherwise. Of course, I heard later that the program director interrupted sign outs to ask where the on-call student was, and then stared at me as I walked onto the ward (20 minutes late) as if it mattered.
4) Medicine is rapidly losing it's magical appeal. Before I came to medical school, I used to love helping people and connecting with them. I would watch tv shows like trauma: life in the er, and "the operation" and this looked like the coolest job in the world. Now I don't see much difference between being a doctor, and being an auto mechanic. You talk to the patient to figure out what's going on, then you follow whatever diagnostic algorithm fits their symptoms, and then prescribe the current standard of treatment. There's a little creativity mixed in there, but not much. The two experiences in medicine that keep me going are the adrenaline rush from crisis situations, and the connections I make with patients. I'm hoping that will be enough to sustain me through residency.
5) I'm no longer idealistic. Due to all of the above, I've become quite defensive of my free time. I'm also tired of not having an income. It's hard not to let these factors 'pollute' my thinking in picking a specialty.
Thoughts?
I actually walked out of a case in OB when I wasnt scrubbed in and nobody was even looking at me or talking to me, and I couldnt see anything. I dont think I won any points for that one. Screw em. Keep your eye open, youll find what you like, it may not be for the reasons that you started out with but go with it. Are you big into physics, spatial relationships and path? RADS Do you like Pharm, and phys? ANES Or do you like orking with your hands and being treated like crap? SURG😀 Sorry couldnt resist. You get my point, your feelings are normal for a normal person during third year. Sure some of the holier than thou freaks dont feel that way, but many of your classmates do. I know I did.
I'm hanging on because I am hoping that my future in medicine will allow me to live in a more humane way than the one I live now. But if it doesn't, then I will bare no shame for having to leave it.
Good luck wherever your heart leads you. [/B]
Originally posted by jessica99
amen to the above two messages. To the first year fellow. You can leave med school before you are so for in debt. Medicine is a "thankless" profession nowadays- taking care of people who want to sue you, people have no respect for doctors and you deal with tons of s---!!! True you get the same crap in other professions however other professions dont have the same sacrifice medicine has ie law is 3 yrs with summers off to make back money to pay tuition. Medicine is 4 yr mostly no summers and more expensive- plus 3-7 yr of training with minimum wage and no life. Lawyers now can make 150k out of law school. I think i'd rather deal with their crap...
Originally posted by Fenrezz
Boy this thread really gives me something to look forward to. 🙁
I think this is the first thread I've ever read on SDN that I wished I hadn't. Especially not before finals. I never knew that third year was that bad. It's kind of depressing because I could see myself getting burned out as well if it's as bad as most people here are saying.
Originally posted by Square Pants
Hey boilergirl76,
Would you graduate (get the MD), and then take a year off, and then apply for residency? This is a hard path to go for a number of reasons: Residency directors would look at the year off as a significant decline in clinical skills; you would lose the dean's letter as part of your application; you would apply to ERAS as an "independent candidate" where you would be pooled with the FMGs; Residency directors might see this time off as "waffling" in your commitment to medicine, which would make you a less than ideal House Officer.
I know this because I am currently a 4th year who extended to do 1 year of pure research before graduating (plus one or two clinical rotations to keep skills sharp). I wanted to graduate with my MD and then do research for awhile and then *maybe* do a residency. This idea was pretty much shot down by my dean, who said I would be far less competive if I entered the match this way.
I would advise taking a year off after 4th year but keep your student status. Take a "leave of absence" if you can. That way you can apply to the match sponsored by your school, and the time off shouldn't hurt you too much.
And, IMHO, it gets slightly better 4th year. Not enough to warrant actually becoming a clinician, but slightly better.
Originally posted by hosskp1
I have had enough myself. but it is too late to quit now...I am thinking about changing into a preventive medicine residency and then getting my MBA and trying to get a corporate job with no patient care and a decent salary.