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Having trouble believing whether these topics display legitimate challenges and not cliche or trivial realization of growing up as an adult working in science and medicine.
I have 2ideas that when I think about them, I feel this bubbling of emotion that speaks to how I'm trying to grow:
1) My research internship at a pharmaceutical company:
I had previous experience in a lab with a very warm, inclusive, mentoring culture at my college and I thought I would transition well into a research group at this company. I didn't. It was hard, lots of sink or swim approach to designing and running my own experiments and getting results, a huge amount of time I needed to review protocols and create proposals for my experimental setups outside of work. Being a student from a "normal name" college when some of the other interns were from MIT and Columbia made the imposter syndrome worse as I felt I was the only one who was struggling. I learned to grit my teeth, be confident with what I proposed, okay with the uncertainty and the grilling from the department directors ( the staff scientists would sometimes cry after lab meeting, being asked how they could be so incompetent and slow with getting their data). I learned to trust myself and act like I was a professional even when I felt I was barely holding on. How unsuccessful experiments and not meeting deadlines didn't mean I was a failure.
2) Realizing my parent's mortality while I was spending hours away from them studying, how you don't have to sacrifice appreciating your family to succeed in your career ambitions
Are these legitimate challenges that adcoms think display personal growth and character or are they lamenting of an emotional guy.
I have 2ideas that when I think about them, I feel this bubbling of emotion that speaks to how I'm trying to grow:
1) My research internship at a pharmaceutical company:
I had previous experience in a lab with a very warm, inclusive, mentoring culture at my college and I thought I would transition well into a research group at this company. I didn't. It was hard, lots of sink or swim approach to designing and running my own experiments and getting results, a huge amount of time I needed to review protocols and create proposals for my experimental setups outside of work. Being a student from a "normal name" college when some of the other interns were from MIT and Columbia made the imposter syndrome worse as I felt I was the only one who was struggling. I learned to grit my teeth, be confident with what I proposed, okay with the uncertainty and the grilling from the department directors ( the staff scientists would sometimes cry after lab meeting, being asked how they could be so incompetent and slow with getting their data). I learned to trust myself and act like I was a professional even when I felt I was barely holding on. How unsuccessful experiments and not meeting deadlines didn't mean I was a failure.
2) Realizing my parent's mortality while I was spending hours away from them studying, how you don't have to sacrifice appreciating your family to succeed in your career ambitions
Are these legitimate challenges that adcoms think display personal growth and character or are they lamenting of an emotional guy.
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