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Hello. I am a first year premed student. I have a 4.0 grade average in 21 credits, but I am not doing well this semester. I have gotten B's on everything in everyone of my 5 classes (18 hours).
I am studying more than I did first semester, and I am doing a lot worse. I know the stuff, but I am making errors when it comes time to take the tests.
Does anyone know how I can get back on track?
I really dislike school. Could my brain just be wearing down from a semester of hating life? I am trying to decide whether I should study more, or if I should just relax and try to enjoy life more.
I dont have any friends because I have unrealistic expectations of others and the world in general; I am too stuborn to hang out with people I dont respect and enjoy being around. I enjoyed the isolation for a while, but I am starting to wonder if it is decreasing my scholastic aptitude.
My other theory is that I no longer really care enough. I dont get nervous at all before tests like I did in the begining of my first semester. Maybe I am subconsciously realizing that it does not really matter, but I consciously still care a lot.
My third theory is that my switch from eye glasses to contact lenses has decreased my testing skills. Last semester I wore glasses (with small round lenses) during the week and saved my contacts for when I was doing things like swimming. I always thought that the glasses helped on tests because when wearing them I have very little perepherial vision due to the small lense size, so I was forced to focus on and only on the test.
I cant even type this post correctly. I keep typing stupid stuff like "know" when I mean "no".
I apologize if this is the wrong forum to post this type of thing, but I enjoy complaining about my life on the internet.
I have a physics test tommorow morning from 8:00-8:50. I will try to break my all B streak. I will be wearing my glasses in addition to a lucky belt and shirt. The test will have many easy questions, so my grade will be determined on my accuracy while rushed.
On a side note, do you ever feel like you are nothing but a chemical machine? I used to believe in a soul because of consciousness, but my subconsciousness is taking over to a point that I am having doubts. You know how when you are driving and talking to someone you drive completly subconsciously (you dont think, "I am going to turn", you just turn). Sometimes everything is that subconscious for me. It first happened on finals day; I got A's on them all, but I felt like I was watching myself take the tests from a 3rd person perspective. Everything was automatic and very little if any conscious thought took place. Sometimes it seems like my whole life is like this; just thoughtlessly perpetuating routines while my life passes by. These first few weeks have gone by fast.
I am studying more than I did first semester, and I am doing a lot worse. I know the stuff, but I am making errors when it comes time to take the tests.
Does anyone know how I can get back on track?
I really dislike school. Could my brain just be wearing down from a semester of hating life? I am trying to decide whether I should study more, or if I should just relax and try to enjoy life more.
I dont have any friends because I have unrealistic expectations of others and the world in general; I am too stuborn to hang out with people I dont respect and enjoy being around. I enjoyed the isolation for a while, but I am starting to wonder if it is decreasing my scholastic aptitude.
My other theory is that I no longer really care enough. I dont get nervous at all before tests like I did in the begining of my first semester. Maybe I am subconsciously realizing that it does not really matter, but I consciously still care a lot.
My third theory is that my switch from eye glasses to contact lenses has decreased my testing skills. Last semester I wore glasses (with small round lenses) during the week and saved my contacts for when I was doing things like swimming. I always thought that the glasses helped on tests because when wearing them I have very little perepherial vision due to the small lense size, so I was forced to focus on and only on the test.
I cant even type this post correctly. I keep typing stupid stuff like "know" when I mean "no".
I apologize if this is the wrong forum to post this type of thing, but I enjoy complaining about my life on the internet.
I have a physics test tommorow morning from 8:00-8:50. I will try to break my all B streak. I will be wearing my glasses in addition to a lucky belt and shirt. The test will have many easy questions, so my grade will be determined on my accuracy while rushed.
On a side note, do you ever feel like you are nothing but a chemical machine? I used to believe in a soul because of consciousness, but my subconsciousness is taking over to a point that I am having doubts. You know how when you are driving and talking to someone you drive completly subconsciously (you dont think, "I am going to turn", you just turn). Sometimes everything is that subconscious for me. It first happened on finals day; I got A's on them all, but I felt like I was watching myself take the tests from a 3rd person perspective. Everything was automatic and very little if any conscious thought took place. Sometimes it seems like my whole life is like this; just thoughtlessly perpetuating routines while my life passes by. These first few weeks have gone by fast.

