Hi, I know this might be something you hear about a lot but I really need help. I am currently in the spring semester of my first year and I've realized that I failed my first year of college. I failed my fall semester with a low GPA of 2.12 and I'm heading towards the same destination this semester. After the fall term, I thought and stressed about my failure a lot. I've never failed so bad in my life as I've always been a straight A student in high school. I took a gap year before college and somehow I think that has made me lazier and not motivated. I find myself wanting to give up a lot more and I know that if I do, I'll look back and regret every decision I've made. Is there any hope for me? Being a doctor is an important part of my life but sometimes I just lack motivation for all of it. I procrastinate and not get any work done. I badly need to get back to my old self but I feel so drowned by everything around me. I am a very realistic person and I know that if I don't get my **** together, I won't get what I want out of life. But how do I get my self together? How did you do it? How? What doesn't help me is seeing my peers succeed so much and change so much and I'm just stuck. I've asked them and no one seems to be giving me an answer. What should I do? I want to use this summer and prep for my second year. I want to be who I once was. The hardworking student with so much thirst for education and so much curiosity. I don't want to be so disappointed in myself anymore. I don't want to be a failure.