I entered Med because that was the right thing to do. I took the required premed courses and took the MCAT and was thrilled for my acceptance. I've been in med school for a moth now but I'm not so thrilled any more. I'm depressed most of the time and I'm not into studying. I know all of you will try to pull out. You will tell me to find my motivator. But I'm a burnt out and I'm not in the mood to study all this information. I don't having anything else to do but I am through spending my days depressed, sad and forcing myself to study.
I am lost and I'm not sure what to do. I have tests ahead and again i am too emotionally tired to study and I have this " I don't care any more attitude". It's like I suddenly discovered that I don't want to study any more and I am through with studying after my BS degree. I find myself thinking about how everything is not worth a moment of my sadness or depression.
I am listening guys and I ready for anything you might post.
Some of the advice you're getting in this thread is good, some isn't. I'm not sure what you mean when you say that going to medical school was "the right thing to do." Do you mean career-wise, or you wanted to devote your life to serving others - what do you mean?
However, you would have had to have a very good reason to go to medical school in order to endure the pre-med classes, taking the MCAT, and going through the application process. Whatever your reasons were, I imagine that you've lost sight of those reasons during the first month of medical school.
Adjusting to medical school is a huge shock. It can be extremely difficult emotionally. Lots of posters on SDN make starting medical school look very easy - and it's not. I had a small nervous breakdown in October of my first semester of medical school - I had been having non-stop panic attacks and having a very difficult time studying. I needed some help - and went to my school's counseling center and got some brief therapy and some meds that stopped my panic attacks very effectively after a few weeks.
My advice: don't get into some agonizing arguments with yourself about whether you do or don't want to be in med school. This is the wrong time. As a previous poster said, you've paid for your first semester. Just make up your mind that you're going to do the best job you can studying - and, if you're so depressed or upset that you need help, do it. Your medical school undoubtedly has a counseling service because LOTS of new med students need help with the shock of adjusting to your new world. Try not to figure out what you want for the rest of your life now - there's no way you can see things clearly for the long-term right now, even if you think you can.
Do the best job that you can - and plan on reassessing your situation at Christmas break, when you'll have three weeks off and much lower stress. Again, if you need some help (and you definitely sound like you do) - go get it.
In October of my first year, I would have done anything I could have to get out. In fact, I actually did "quit" and told our Student Services coordinator that I was going home. Fortunately, the assistant deans were out of town at a convention. After a day at home, I decided to suck it up and go back. Now - well, I firmly believe in all of the reasons I originally had for going to medical school and, although life isn't easy, I'm having a great time and looking forward to the rest of my training and my life.
I hope you'll listen carefully to someone who was exactly where you are now - and who came within a hair's breadth of quitting.
