applying to mostly out-of-current region (but into my original "home" area programs). got 5 IV/40+ programs in the last 24h. none from my preferred region, all big time safeties i added in a panic at 3am EST on 10/21. It feels GREAT to have IV - truly, I feel blessed. i got in the 210s on step 1; my home area is very popular. but F&*K i really want to match back home.
praying they come. also on Vacation right now from rotations and am refreshing everyhting like a monster. its toxic. i think we all need to do some serious self-care this weekend. i feel like an ass still being nervous given my total count, but i also want to recognize everyone is in their own boats. im older, have a family who is very much counting on me matching back home after a brutal few years at a med school far away. this process really sucks and i wish there was more transparency from program about who they're looking for and their interview process. this may get some heat but my heart hurts and i feel like i don't have anyone else to vent to, so here i am.
seriously, praying they will come. for all of us who need it...at least we have each other. and sorry if this is pretentious, i am so grateful for the IV i have, but they are all where i currently am and idk if my family can take another three years. i haven't been able to get good sleep in a few nights.