Today's 8 miles was so horrible I don't really even want to talk about it...
I ran the first ~3.5 miles and then did intervals of walking/running for the last 4.5. I don't know what happened. It just felt so awful. I am ashamed to admit it, especially after all the encouragement people have given me and how "awesome" my friends and family think I am for going for this...but I'm not sure if I actually have the DESIRE to run this far. Like, seriously...today, it stopped being fun. Up to about 6 miles, I was having fun. It's not about quitting when the going gets tough, because it's not like running 4, 5, 6 miles is easy by any means...it just feels doable. It makes me feel good about myself. This was just awful.
So I guess what I'm trying to say is I don't know. I really don't want to be stressing over 1/2 marathon training when I'm starting vet school in a couple short weeks. I don't need to be a super athlete, I just want to be fit and healthy. I want something fun and stress-relieving. I feel like I can achieve that with two 3-mile runs, one 4-mile run, and one 6-mile run per week. That's 16 miles a week, which if you ask me isn't too shabby.
So I have some thinking to do. It's not the end of the world if I decide not to do the half marathon; I just hate feeling like a quitter. Which I know I'm not; I've come super far from where I've started. And it's not like there's only one half marathon in the world, ever, I can always go back to it in the future if I want to. Sigh.