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So, this is a long post, and thanks in advance to those who make it to the end.
I'm graduating this May and I have to decide what I am doing in my time off. I was originally planning on applying this year, but i don't think i know enough about medicine and healthcare to say with confidence it is something i want to do for the rest of my life (or even fall back on), and to a somewhat smaller degree, the same goes for research. in light of these doubts (whether reasonable or not), I've decided applying this June would be premature, and i would benefit from a year out of school, getting as much exposure to research and medicine as possible, and then making a decision with a strengthened application.
I've got some dilemmas as far as what to do in that time off. Last night I had a conversation with my PI and he said if I would like, I can stay at the lab an additional year and continue working on my project. (mind you, he thinks me taking more time off is nonsense, but i think he isn't seeing my doubts, and assessing it more based on my ability). At the end of the day, my project hasn't been very fruitful because of an ineffective antibody, and my lack of positive control use on every trial. I am looking at other antibodies, and one faculty even said we could raise one against the antigen, though given its homologous nature to other antigens (its an MHC gene), i think taking the proper care to ensure specificity to my antigen isn't in my reach (the guys who have come up with antibodies test them against huge panels of MHC transfectants). in any event, this raises issues for me. I don't know what to do.
Pros: my PI is famous (not in the HHMI way, but clinical trails), and the primary cells (something i am actually interested in pursuing in the future) i am studying cost an arm and a leg, and at this lab there is lots of access to them.
Cons: my experience at the lab was rough, since the PI is rarely there, though him being there would not substantially change my experience. my project was my own and i made a lot of mistakes, but also learned alot. if i do stay at the lab, i shouldn't assume i would be able to stay the entire 2, especially since my PI doesn't support that. he said if i was taking two years off, i might as well get a PhD (side note: which paradoxically seems to make my research less of a plus on my application, at least thats the impression i get from the PhD-to-MD crowd.) though getting a PhD may be something i want to do, i think only a PhD isn't wise given the way things are, and if i were to end up wanting an MD, i feel like getting an PhD beforehand would be a waste of a chance to just combine the two at the same institute.
I think the 2 year span of time i have is a good opportunity to join a new lab and work on something as part of a team, and hopefully get results. through out my time as an undergrad i always felt somewhat upset that everyone else i spoke to on research didn't have to do all the ground work and make all the mistakes i was making. i know that's part of science, and i anticipate doing a good deal of that if i get a PhD, but as an undergrad it made me feel like i was at an awful disadvantage. finding a new lab also raises fears for me, particularly that i won't get a good position, won't get the opportunity to develop an independent project, and essentially just be a bare bones support technician. if that happened, i would be in deep regret about how i used my time.
Put succinctly, here are my questions.
i am pretty strongly bent toward not applying this year because of my doubts. i want to get research and clinical experience in my time off, and ultimately make the most out of the time. Staying at the current lab doesn't seem like a good idea because of the issues ive had before. Finding a new lab seems difficult, and i don't know where to start.
1. Is staying in my current lab a good idea?
2 if not: I've looked at a few university pages, and some labs are hiring research techs. how do i know these labs are places i would be able to develop as a scientist.
3. has anyone heard about the research tech positions at MSKCC. they hire people for 2 year positions, but again i am scared to hell of wasting 2 years doing purely lab maintenance.
4. Is there anything else i should be aware of
Any other advice is appreciated. My stats are solid and my MCAT will be good for applying this or next year, and i want this experience to give me insight on what i want to do, and amplify my application if i end up applying. any help is appreciated. i would be willing to go into more details if needed through PM.
I'm graduating this May and I have to decide what I am doing in my time off. I was originally planning on applying this year, but i don't think i know enough about medicine and healthcare to say with confidence it is something i want to do for the rest of my life (or even fall back on), and to a somewhat smaller degree, the same goes for research. in light of these doubts (whether reasonable or not), I've decided applying this June would be premature, and i would benefit from a year out of school, getting as much exposure to research and medicine as possible, and then making a decision with a strengthened application.
I've got some dilemmas as far as what to do in that time off. Last night I had a conversation with my PI and he said if I would like, I can stay at the lab an additional year and continue working on my project. (mind you, he thinks me taking more time off is nonsense, but i think he isn't seeing my doubts, and assessing it more based on my ability). At the end of the day, my project hasn't been very fruitful because of an ineffective antibody, and my lack of positive control use on every trial. I am looking at other antibodies, and one faculty even said we could raise one against the antigen, though given its homologous nature to other antigens (its an MHC gene), i think taking the proper care to ensure specificity to my antigen isn't in my reach (the guys who have come up with antibodies test them against huge panels of MHC transfectants). in any event, this raises issues for me. I don't know what to do.
Pros: my PI is famous (not in the HHMI way, but clinical trails), and the primary cells (something i am actually interested in pursuing in the future) i am studying cost an arm and a leg, and at this lab there is lots of access to them.
Cons: my experience at the lab was rough, since the PI is rarely there, though him being there would not substantially change my experience. my project was my own and i made a lot of mistakes, but also learned alot. if i do stay at the lab, i shouldn't assume i would be able to stay the entire 2, especially since my PI doesn't support that. he said if i was taking two years off, i might as well get a PhD (side note: which paradoxically seems to make my research less of a plus on my application, at least thats the impression i get from the PhD-to-MD crowd.) though getting a PhD may be something i want to do, i think only a PhD isn't wise given the way things are, and if i were to end up wanting an MD, i feel like getting an PhD beforehand would be a waste of a chance to just combine the two at the same institute.
I think the 2 year span of time i have is a good opportunity to join a new lab and work on something as part of a team, and hopefully get results. through out my time as an undergrad i always felt somewhat upset that everyone else i spoke to on research didn't have to do all the ground work and make all the mistakes i was making. i know that's part of science, and i anticipate doing a good deal of that if i get a PhD, but as an undergrad it made me feel like i was at an awful disadvantage. finding a new lab also raises fears for me, particularly that i won't get a good position, won't get the opportunity to develop an independent project, and essentially just be a bare bones support technician. if that happened, i would be in deep regret about how i used my time.
Put succinctly, here are my questions.
i am pretty strongly bent toward not applying this year because of my doubts. i want to get research and clinical experience in my time off, and ultimately make the most out of the time. Staying at the current lab doesn't seem like a good idea because of the issues ive had before. Finding a new lab seems difficult, and i don't know where to start.
1. Is staying in my current lab a good idea?
2 if not: I've looked at a few university pages, and some labs are hiring research techs. how do i know these labs are places i would be able to develop as a scientist.
3. has anyone heard about the research tech positions at MSKCC. they hire people for 2 year positions, but again i am scared to hell of wasting 2 years doing purely lab maintenance.
4. Is there anything else i should be aware of
Any other advice is appreciated. My stats are solid and my MCAT will be good for applying this or next year, and i want this experience to give me insight on what i want to do, and amplify my application if i end up applying. any help is appreciated. i would be willing to go into more details if needed through PM.