Depressed about life as a premed student

[PreMedHopeful]

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Okay so this morning I had to shadow a doctor and I have been shadowing him Friday mornings for about a month and I guess now I'm getting bored with pediatrics and seen it all but probably not...anyway he was getting mad at me because I was asking him redundant questions and while he was trying to be polite...he has a distinct arrogance that makes me want to punch him....and to think I plan on getting a letter of recommendation from him in a few weeks....

so as of now, I told him I'm going on vacation and taking a few weeks off of shadowing him personally and might go back in a few weeks...should I ask him for a letter later? By the way, I apologized several times, and he said it was fine dont worry about it, but still I get the sense he thinks I'm stupid and not as educated about current events and I try and keep on top of things but I'm very stressed...

So I'm stressed with being a premed student and thought the best way to undergo therapy would be by talking to other SDN premed students and see how they are doing? I am extremely stressed regarding a summer class, the MCAT, future classes, applying to medical school, and the whole process seems so intimidating and I doubt if I am smart enough to really become a doctor...I'm just very sad plus this week I had a car accident and my car hydroplaned and right now I have no car....I am fine but it affected me emotionally....

I am just depressed, stressed, and tired about life as a premed student...today is one of those days when I get to questioning WHY AM I BECOMING A DOCTOR....IS IT WORTH IT....WILL I BE HAPPY IN 10 years? AND IS A FUTURE IN MEDICINE TRULY REWARDING????????

 

[txprodigal]

Okay so this morning I had to shadow a doctor and I have been shadowing him Friday mornings for about a month and I guess now I'm getting bored with pediatrics and seen it all but probably not...anyway he was getting mad at me because I was asking him redundant questions and while he was trying to be polite...he has a distinct arrogance that makes me want to punch him....and to think I plan on getting a letter of recommendation from him in a few weeks....

so as of now, I told him I'm going on vacation and taking a few weeks off of shadowing him personally and might go back in a few weeks...should I ask him for a letter later? By the way, I apologized several times, and he said it was fine dont worry about it, but still I get the sense he thinks I'm stupid and not as educated about current events and I try and keep on top of things but I'm very stressed...

So I'm stressed with being a premed student and thought the best way to undergo therapy would be by talking to other SDN premed students and see how they are doing? I am extremely stressed regarding a summer class, the MCAT, future classes, applying to medical school, and the whole process seems so intimidating and I doubt if I am smart enough to really become a doctor...I'm just very sad plus this week I had a car accident and my car hydroplaned and right now I have no car....I am fine but it affected me emotionally....

I am just depressed, stressed, and tired about life as a premed student...today is one of those days when I get to questioning WHY AM I BECOMING A DOCTOR....IS IT WORTH IT....WILL I BE HAPPY IN 10 years? AND IS A FUTURE IN MEDICINE TRULY REWARDING????????

go work out and then hang out with some friends tonight...

sometimes you just need to step back and relax

 

[Mattabet]

So I'm stressed with being a premed student and thought the best way to undergo therapy would be by talking to other SDN premed students and see how they are doing?

I can just about guarantee you that the best therapy is not going to be on SDN. Sometimes you just need to take a little break with some non-premeds and decompress. Everyone has down days. The future is what you make of it. But WEAKNESS is to GUNNERS as BLOOD is to SHARKS. So, I'd watch out for 'em...

 

[sizillyd]

Damn. I definitely agree with txprodigal. Just relax, hit up some friends and just chill. Take your mind off if everything and try to put it in the back of your mind. If you are religious, pray about it. Obviously you are extremely stressed, but just remember that all this will pass and eventually what will be left is that medical degree. In the end, that is what will be left. Stress will still be there, but you will be adapted to it. Think about that time in your future. Can you see yourself being happy?

 

[PreMedHopeful]

this therapy is working! omg free therapy wow lolllll but yeah I'll be fine...Im just having a bad week and I know life is stressful sometimes but I just need to chill more and I don't get what you mean about the gunners and sharks...like I'm so out of it right now...I just need some sleep so then I can wake up feeling better...that's all I can hope for...hope for the best in the future...ultimately you make your life what it is so I know I will find happiness

 

[FatsyWatsy]

Okay so this morning I had to shadow a doctor and I have been shadowing him Friday mornings for about a month and I guess now I'm getting bored with pediatrics and seen it all but probably not...anyway he was getting mad at me because I was asking him redundant questions and while he was trying to be polite...he has a distinct arrogance that makes me want to punch him....and to think I plan on getting a letter of recommendation from him in a few weeks....

so as of now, I told him I'm going on vacation and taking a few weeks off of shadowing him personally and might go back in a few weeks...should I ask him for a letter later? By the way, I apologized several times, and he said it was fine dont worry about it, but still I get the sense he thinks I'm stupid and not as educated about current events and I try and keep on top of things but I'm very stressed...

So I'm stressed with being a premed student and thought the best way to undergo therapy would be by talking to other SDN premed students and see how they are doing? I am extremely stressed regarding a summer class, the MCAT, future classes, applying to medical school, and the whole process seems so intimidating and I doubt if I am smart enough to really become a doctor...I'm just very sad plus this week I had a car accident and my car hydroplaned and right now I have no car....I am fine but it affected me emotionally....

I am just depressed, stressed, and tired about life as a premed student...today is one of those days when I get to questioning WHY AM I BECOMING A DOCTOR....IS IT WORTH IT....WILL I BE HAPPY IN 10 years? AND IS A FUTURE IN MEDICINE TRULY REWARDING????????

i didnt read the other responses so i apologize if this is redundant but i wouldnt worry too much about feelings of inadequacies ... weve all gone thru it, hell i know i have plenty of times, it just seems like its a part of life ... the good thing is that youve already realized that your not the smartest person out there, which is something that everyone will come to realize for the simple fact that no matter where you go there will ALWAYS someone smarter ... and to be honest who wants to be the smartest anyways, it is my experience that that degree of intelligence is usually accompanied with arrogance and a sense of entitlement, not very desirable qualities of a doctor from the patient's perspective ... anywho, hang in there bud and just keep working hard in doing whats necessary to get into medical school

 

[Kaustikos]

this therapy is working! omg free therapy wow lolllll but yeah I'll be fine...Im just having a bad week and I know life is stressful sometimes but I just need to chill more and I don't get what you mean about the gunners and sharks...like I'm so out of it right now...I just need some sleep so then I can wake up feeling better...that's all I can hope for...hope for the best in the future...ultimately you make your life what it is so I know I will find happiness

I was rejected from 5 schools, car broke down 150 miles from home, had a seizure and broke a scapule in 3 days, so I can understand where you're coming from. It sucks, but you REALLY need to relax. Take a couple days to a week off and just RELAX. Getting stressed doesn't help, nor does coming on here. Stay away from SDN and just get together with friends. I highly recommend a double-shot jack daniels while watching a pixar movie.

 

[n618ft]

You need to chill and stop being the typical premed nerd... go play some sports, get some strange, or find some outdoor hobbies. If you're stressed being a PREMED STUDENT, how's it going to be on the job making life-critical decisions? Get real... and if this post sounds a bit firm, I've made my point.

 

[PreMedHopeful]

yes you made your point clear, I am a life complainer lol and stress is my middle name and I know there will always be stress in life, but knowing that others are also going through it makes me feel better in some odd way but yeah I'm just relaxing today...haha shots anyone? lolll TGIF

 

[PreMedHopeful]

also thanks to the people that gave some encouragement...we all need it now and then and yeah I know I'm not the smartest....I realized that a long time ago but I try and be the best person in life, which I hope will translate into being the best physician to my patients in the future

 

[Kaustikos]

also thanks to the people that gave some encouragement...we all need it now and then and yeah I know I'm not the smartest....I realized that a long time ago but I try and be the best person in life, which I hope will translate into being the best physician to my patients in the future

I've just become more cynical, so I can tell you how not to approach it because I've been through it multitudes of times.

 

[Food]

Okay so this morning I had to shadow a doctor and I have been shadowing him Friday mornings for about a month and I guess now I'm getting bored with pediatrics and seen it all but probably not...anyway he was getting mad at me because I was asking him redundant questions and while he was trying to be polite...he has a distinct arrogance that makes me want to punch him....and to think I plan on getting a letter of recommendation from him in a few weeks....

so as of now, I told him I'm going on vacation and taking a few weeks off of shadowing him personally and might go back in a few weeks...should I ask him for a letter later? By the way, I apologized several times, and he said it was fine dont worry about it, but still I get the sense he thinks I'm stupid and not as educated about current events and I try and keep on top of things but I'm very stressed...

So I'm stressed with being a premed student and thought the best way to undergo therapy would be by talking to other SDN premed students and see how they are doing? I am extremely stressed regarding a summer class, the MCAT, future classes, applying to medical school, and the whole process seems so intimidating and I doubt if I am smart enough to really become a doctor...I'm just very sad plus this week I had a car accident and my car hydroplaned and right now I have no car....I am fine but it affected me emotionally....

I am just depressed, stressed, and tired about life as a premed student...today is one of those days when I get to questioning WHY AM I BECOMING A DOCTOR....IS IT WORTH IT....WILL I BE HAPPY IN 10 years? AND IS A FUTURE IN MEDICINE TRULY REWARDING????????

Think of all this as preparation for medical school and life as a doctor. Doing well on the MCAT and getting into med school are going to be a few milestones among many that you will have in your career. Later, you will find that many things were just as/if not more intimidating than being a pre-med. So just think of it as - what can't kill me will only make me stronger. You're gonna need this kind of attitude to be a good doctor - I'm not in med school, but I think that's what it takes.

Also know that a good number of us feel the same way. Especially, those of us who made mistakes in the past (academically, legally or whatever) and are now trying to make up for it.

Just try to relax and enjoy what time you can. I've been unsure about my medical career for the last 6-7 months. Got my only interview back in December 2008, and as of today - I still don't know if I'll be in medical school this fall (waitlisted since 5/6). I've spent this whole summer so far, volunteering and shadowing everywhere possible, but I've also tried to take time to relax and enjoy the summer. The stress is high - but you can make it bearable by taking it easy on yourself every now and then.

Good luck.

 

[Pills Of Soap]

sometimes you have to take things one day at a time.

relax now. theres no reason to stress yet.

 

[PreMedHopeful]

hahaa unfortunately I can't really relax I have a big test next week, but I will leave that for Sunday hahaa, anyways good luck Food, you never know what happens, maybe you might get in, if not, there's always next cycle and now you have a year to explore anything you want!

 

[Omni]

lol, what real year are you?
Honestly, if you're looking for excitment, then idk about you guys, but I wouldn't recommend anyone to look for it in pediatrics.
And also, when you make a mistake with someone who's teaching you something, whether its a professor or this doctor, don't ever apologize. Especially redundantly

 

[runrunrudolph1]

Okay so this morning I had to shadow a doctor and I have been shadowing him Friday mornings for about a month and I guess now I'm getting bored with pediatrics and seen it all but probably not...anyway he was getting mad at me because I was asking him redundant questions and while he was trying to be polite...he has a distinct arrogance that makes me want to punch him....and to think I plan on getting a letter of recommendation from him in a few weeks....

so as of now, I told him I'm going on vacation and taking a few weeks off of shadowing him personally and might go back in a few weeks...should I ask him for a letter later? By the way, I apologized several times, and he said it was fine dont worry about it, but still I get the sense he thinks I'm stupid and not as educated about current events and I try and keep on top of things but I'm very stressed...

So I'm stressed with being a premed student and thought the best way to undergo therapy would be by talking to other SDN premed students and see how they are doing? I am extremely stressed regarding a summer class, the MCAT, future classes, applying to medical school, and the whole process seems so intimidating and I doubt if I am smart enough to really become a doctor...I'm just very sad plus this week I had a car accident and my car hydroplaned and right now I have no car....I am fine but it affected me emotionally....

I am just depressed, stressed, and tired about life as a premed student...today is one of those days when I get to questioning WHY AM I BECOMING A DOCTOR....IS IT WORTH IT....WILL I BE HAPPY IN 10 years? AND IS A FUTURE IN MEDICINE TRULY REWARDING????????

You need to try surgery, you will never get bored. Esp. trauma surgery... I know what you mean about the doctor, honestly, these docs are macho attendings who are not impressed by anything a little premed would do. I was told that even if they are impressed with you they will never show it but they will continue to tear you down- weeds out the people who dont really want to do it.🙁


I can relate to what you are saying word by word haha. Down to the depressed, classes, insecurities, doubts. But it will definately be worth it in the end. There is no doubt in my mind about that. So take some time, relax, breathe, drink... it will help 🙂

 

[266549]

i love that everyone advises fellow premedies to drink. a bunch of us at my school regularly agree that our livers hate us due to our ambitions.

 

[runrunrudolph1]

i love that everyone advises fellow premedies to drink. a bunch of us at my school regularly agree that our livers hate us due to our ambitions.

 

[sshashid87]

It may be you just don't like peds, there's nothing wrong with that. As other people suggested, try another specialty...I shadowed a cardiologist for ~80 hrs and I never had redundant questions, I was actually interested in everything...now, I shadowed an internist and after 20 hrs I was just done, but I didn't even bother asking questions anymore since I had my LOR from the cardiologist...find something else, don't force yourself to stay in one specialty (that's bad for applications anyway, i assume they like variety)

 

[ninetynine]

in my HUMBLE opinion, those who have a really really good reason to enter medicine will last through disappoint, fear, trial, pain. at the end of the day, they say, "reason A, reason B, reason C. This is why I am doing this. This is why I will persevere. I know what I am working for, and it is worth the struggle and the pain." If you can't list reasons A, B, and C, and be completely convinced they're true and you care, I'm not sure you're made for medicine. If you feel this way now, you'll only feel ten times worse in med school. Do what you love and don't waste your life. 😕

 

[PreMedHopeful]

I just had a bad week, recovered this weekend by taking it easy and then I will dread Monday but that's life for you...I just have to learn to handle stress....