Greetings,
So I was diagnosed with OCPD and now it is clear to me why I do the things in life the way I do (I am very specific when it comes to the way things are placed, preparing for the next day, etc). It is kind of a pain for me and is exhausting. When I try to calm down and do things in a more relaxed way and not care about details, I start feeling down because I know I can do things better. It is a constant tug war.
I finally gave up and decided that in order to not feel down and not feel guilt when I do not do things perfectly (aka the way my brain tells me to do them), I will just do what my brain tells me. However, when I apply that to studying, I end up spending too much time studying. I mean I can go on for two days. I do not feel bored, as I am enjoying doing things perfectly (example: I started reading the heredity chapter from AP Bio. yesterday and taking notes and I ended up taking notes on the first two pages of the chapter from 3 PM to 10 PM. After that, I felt terrible about myself when reflecting on how I spend this whole time looking things up on Google, YouTube, refreshing on the older chapters, looking into things more deeply from the previous chapters.
I know that the DAT is a lot of material and I realised that in order for me to do well on it, I will have to get through the material. However, at the speed I am going at, I will not have the enough time to study the other subjects (let alone finishing AP Bio.).
Do you have any recommendations on how I should study? Should I stop taking notes? Should I not bring paper and pens with me? Should I turn off WiFi to not search things up on Google and YouTube? I cannot find a happy medium. I either go full on with notes, or if I don't, I start feeling guilty.
Thank you for your help.
So I was diagnosed with OCPD and now it is clear to me why I do the things in life the way I do (I am very specific when it comes to the way things are placed, preparing for the next day, etc). It is kind of a pain for me and is exhausting. When I try to calm down and do things in a more relaxed way and not care about details, I start feeling down because I know I can do things better. It is a constant tug war.
I finally gave up and decided that in order to not feel down and not feel guilt when I do not do things perfectly (aka the way my brain tells me to do them), I will just do what my brain tells me. However, when I apply that to studying, I end up spending too much time studying. I mean I can go on for two days. I do not feel bored, as I am enjoying doing things perfectly (example: I started reading the heredity chapter from AP Bio. yesterday and taking notes and I ended up taking notes on the first two pages of the chapter from 3 PM to 10 PM. After that, I felt terrible about myself when reflecting on how I spend this whole time looking things up on Google, YouTube, refreshing on the older chapters, looking into things more deeply from the previous chapters.
I know that the DAT is a lot of material and I realised that in order for me to do well on it, I will have to get through the material. However, at the speed I am going at, I will not have the enough time to study the other subjects (let alone finishing AP Bio.).
Do you have any recommendations on how I should study? Should I stop taking notes? Should I not bring paper and pens with me? Should I turn off WiFi to not search things up on Google and YouTube? I cannot find a happy medium. I either go full on with notes, or if I don't, I start feeling guilty.
Thank you for your help.
