If you were to do it all over again, what would have made you less stressed out?
Did the amount of sdn stalking on specific school discussions help or hurt?
Did anyone ever feel truly ready/worthy for any interview?
How often did you question your intelligence and ability to overcome this process?
Just wanted to see if anyone is as emotionally drained as I am right now. I feel relieved but completely devoid of $$ or emotions. I felt euphoria like I never felt before getting that acceptance but at the same time this cycle was an emotional roller coaster. The lows were oh so low...
I didnt get in this past cycle but, heck, I feel like answering this.
Since I am doing it all over again, being consistent with my workouts and not neglecting my gf as much will help lessen some stress.
I stalked the specific school discussions for a few days straight, then went cold turkey for weeks, and repeated this pattern. Seeing others in the same situation and coming across useful advice you wouldnt have thought of made it very helpful.
After a few hours reading about the school, I felt more than ready and excited about doing the interview.
I dont consider myself smart, people often say I am but I think they just have low standards for intelligence and/or theyre trying to sweet talk me into doing them a favor. When I mess up, I get a little annoyed and say to myself "really brain, really?" Sometimes I purposely make myself feel worse b/c I find negative energy quite motivating. Questioning your intelligence and abilities is nothing compared to the soul-destroying effects of questioning your sanity after messing up in a certain way multiple times, it immobilizes you. But like most things soul-destroying, a boner and a cute girl (bonus if she's your gf and you genuinely like her a lot) is the quick-fix remedy, so glad Im a dude, I have no idea what Id do if I was a chick, maybe some heroine I hear a lot of good things about it..
Being emotionally drained is tiring; numb is a better word to describe how I most often feel during the process. Emotional dissociation allows me to be very productive, partly by saving me from the prolonged, energy-sapping, and stressful roller coaster rides (and btw I dont even like real ones). My buddy tells me this is a trait people with a lot of Neanderthal DNA usually have and that's why it's uncommon. Interesting theory, not sure if its correct, but it does make some sense given what I already know on the subject. Anyways, Im ready for this coming cycle, I made some big improvements..