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Apollo8
I have hit some roadblocks in my medical education and I am seeking advice in how to proceed. Here is the story. My fiancée and I met during undergrad at a university in my home state. She was a resident of a neighboring state. We both wanted to go to medical school and were hoping to go together. I graduated with honors in neuroscience and got a 32 on my MCAT. The only school that accepted us both was in her home state and so that is where we went. It didnt take long before I realized that I was unhappy in this new location and that this institution did not feel like a good fit for me academically. I have struggled with ADHD all my life. I was able to muscle through until medical school but I struggled at several points during medical school.
Fast-forward to present day and here is the situation. My fiancée (we have been engaged forever but are kind of waiting to figure all this out before we actually get married) and I live in Pittsburgh, where she is finishing up her transitional year. She matched into a radiology spot in Albany, NY and will start her residency there this summer. I made it through year 1 of med school without having to remediate any coursework but second year was a different story. I did eventually make it through year 2 but I failed step1 on my first attempt. On my second attempt I passed with a 210. I began third year rotations with family medicine (it was ok) and scored well above 10th national percentile on the shelf exam(10th percentile is the cutoff set by the school for successful completion of the clerkship). My second rotation was ob/gyn (hated it). I completed the entire clerkship but scored under 10th percentile on the shelf. At this point the school made it clear to me that I was on thin ice and that any further academic shortcomings would result in dismissal. I then completed the entire surgery rotation (absolutely loved it) but scored 9th percentile on the shelf. The associate dean gave me the option to voluntarily withdraw before the academic committee officially dismissed me and that is what I did. It has been about a month now since my withdrawal.
I believe that special testing accommodations for ADHD were available but I never requested them (I have principal problems with the fairness of this practice plus I was reluctant to carry the ADHD label). In hindsight I probably should have swallowed my pride and requested these accommodations. I would feel competent at each point of the curriculum but as the pressure built I became more prone to test anxiety. I went into the surgery and ob/gyn exams knowing that it was my last desperate chance to redeem myself and not be kicked out. This do-or-die pressure was just too distracting for me to read those long question stems effectively.
Since withdrawing I have given serious consideration to starting a new career path outside of medicine. I am still certain though that I want to be a physician and I am confident that I can be an excellent one. I am not going to give up.
Adding to my desire to continue is the depressing financial situation I face after paying 4+ years of out-of state tuition. I have received some good advice in another thread about Income Based loan repayment programs but that still seems like an uphill battle. I know that having a radiologist wife means that I will eventually live comfortably regardless, but I am already dying a little bit inside after one month of doing the stay-at-home-husband thing.
So my plan now is to apply to different medical schools as an advanced standing student. Given my academic history, I dont think I can realistically expect any LCME accredited U.S. medical school to take me on but I will still try. My understanding of how Caribbean/international medical education works is limited but it sounds like I would probably be able to gain acceptance at one of these programs. I have a somewhat indirect connection to the owner of one particular off-shore school and initial communications with that school have me hopeful.
The odds are certainly stacked against me at this point but it seems like the M.D. is still attainable, even if it has to come from a foreign school. I was hoping to get some feedback on my decision to continue in medicine and if there are any major obstacles that I am overlooking. Of course matching into a U.S. residency will be challenging, but that was going to be the case anyway with all the blemishes in my academic file. Please also let me know if anyone has advice on where I should or should not apply.
Thanks
Fast-forward to present day and here is the situation. My fiancée (we have been engaged forever but are kind of waiting to figure all this out before we actually get married) and I live in Pittsburgh, where she is finishing up her transitional year. She matched into a radiology spot in Albany, NY and will start her residency there this summer. I made it through year 1 of med school without having to remediate any coursework but second year was a different story. I did eventually make it through year 2 but I failed step1 on my first attempt. On my second attempt I passed with a 210. I began third year rotations with family medicine (it was ok) and scored well above 10th national percentile on the shelf exam(10th percentile is the cutoff set by the school for successful completion of the clerkship). My second rotation was ob/gyn (hated it). I completed the entire clerkship but scored under 10th percentile on the shelf. At this point the school made it clear to me that I was on thin ice and that any further academic shortcomings would result in dismissal. I then completed the entire surgery rotation (absolutely loved it) but scored 9th percentile on the shelf. The associate dean gave me the option to voluntarily withdraw before the academic committee officially dismissed me and that is what I did. It has been about a month now since my withdrawal.
I believe that special testing accommodations for ADHD were available but I never requested them (I have principal problems with the fairness of this practice plus I was reluctant to carry the ADHD label). In hindsight I probably should have swallowed my pride and requested these accommodations. I would feel competent at each point of the curriculum but as the pressure built I became more prone to test anxiety. I went into the surgery and ob/gyn exams knowing that it was my last desperate chance to redeem myself and not be kicked out. This do-or-die pressure was just too distracting for me to read those long question stems effectively.
Since withdrawing I have given serious consideration to starting a new career path outside of medicine. I am still certain though that I want to be a physician and I am confident that I can be an excellent one. I am not going to give up.
Adding to my desire to continue is the depressing financial situation I face after paying 4+ years of out-of state tuition. I have received some good advice in another thread about Income Based loan repayment programs but that still seems like an uphill battle. I know that having a radiologist wife means that I will eventually live comfortably regardless, but I am already dying a little bit inside after one month of doing the stay-at-home-husband thing.
So my plan now is to apply to different medical schools as an advanced standing student. Given my academic history, I dont think I can realistically expect any LCME accredited U.S. medical school to take me on but I will still try. My understanding of how Caribbean/international medical education works is limited but it sounds like I would probably be able to gain acceptance at one of these programs. I have a somewhat indirect connection to the owner of one particular off-shore school and initial communications with that school have me hopeful.
The odds are certainly stacked against me at this point but it seems like the M.D. is still attainable, even if it has to come from a foreign school. I was hoping to get some feedback on my decision to continue in medicine and if there are any major obstacles that I am overlooking. Of course matching into a U.S. residency will be challenging, but that was going to be the case anyway with all the blemishes in my academic file. Please also let me know if anyone has advice on where I should or should not apply.
Thanks