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I'm hoping that in divulging my fears someone will reach out to me and shed some light on my current crisis!
I loved my psychiatry course, but struggled throughout most of medical school. I had terrible anxiety and procrastination, and a constant crippling insecurity about my intellectual abilities.
I managed to get through first and second year but not without remediating two classes and justifying myself to the phase 1 committee multiple times.
Now in third year, I find myself again debilitated by my fears of inadequacy. I'm doing my internal medicine rotation and am mortified that I won't be prepared to care for my own patients as an intern. I seem to have forgotten basic physiology or perhaps never learned it well enough the first time. My knowledge base seems grossly inept compared to my peers.
Unfortunately, I've come to resent allopathic medicine in general for the lack of emphasis on preventative care or the importance of lifestyle and nutrition in health maintenance. I loathe medications but realize their value in treating patients with acute illnesses. Still, my aversion to the approach of modern medicine combined with crippling anxiety and self-doubt has left me depressed, fearful and avoidant.
I'm terrified that I won't know enough internal medicine to practice as a psychiatrist! Am I being unrealistic? How can I resolve this?
🙁
I loved my psychiatry course, but struggled throughout most of medical school. I had terrible anxiety and procrastination, and a constant crippling insecurity about my intellectual abilities.
I managed to get through first and second year but not without remediating two classes and justifying myself to the phase 1 committee multiple times.
Now in third year, I find myself again debilitated by my fears of inadequacy. I'm doing my internal medicine rotation and am mortified that I won't be prepared to care for my own patients as an intern. I seem to have forgotten basic physiology or perhaps never learned it well enough the first time. My knowledge base seems grossly inept compared to my peers.
Unfortunately, I've come to resent allopathic medicine in general for the lack of emphasis on preventative care or the importance of lifestyle and nutrition in health maintenance. I loathe medications but realize their value in treating patients with acute illnesses. Still, my aversion to the approach of modern medicine combined with crippling anxiety and self-doubt has left me depressed, fearful and avoidant.
I'm terrified that I won't know enough internal medicine to practice as a psychiatrist! Am I being unrealistic? How can I resolve this?
🙁
