I know a lot of you had or have it worse than I do. You're right. It is brutal. It's inhumane. I hate it hate it hate it - I turn into a different person without sleep, exercise, or a social life. I can't imagine what I'd do with >100 overnights. Cry, I suppose. And a lot more of it, at least.
It does help hearing that other people struggle and suffer through the overnights or the next mornings. Thanks for helping me realize I'm sane to feel tired.
As for those people that like call: good for you. I'm glad it works for some people; it just doesn't work for me. I slept 18 hours straight after my last call, and I was still exhausted and dragging the next day. Some people recover, some people fake it, some people can tolerate caffeine more than others. I still maintain that I don't do well with sleep deprivation, and that I never will.
With all the discussion that occurs on these forums, it seems that there's often a divide between surgical vs medical call, duties and training. I can imagine that long hours on surgical call would be necessary. For my position in intern year of medicine, though, I know that my long calls don't teach me anything. I feel I am learning drastically less than I could if I were well rested. I am so disenchanted and overworked that the last thing I want to do when I get home is read about my patients. So, I go to work, do the job, and then come home and try to forget about it. (Until I sleep, that is. Then I return to the hospital in my dreams. Sigh.) Surgery needs experience in procedures. Thankfully, medicine doesn't rely on practice with procedures as much and therefore, (hopefully,) will be adequately served by shorter shifts. More rested residents make for better learning all around, I would argue. At least that's how it would work for me.
I hate being bitter, spiteful, hateful and apathetic. But that's what I become after 2 months of wards. And like I said, my call schedule isn't as bad as some, I know. I don't know how all of you go through it, but I hope if most of us make it, I can too.
Thanks.