Hello, I'm a third year medical student (in the middle east) whose having doubts! Sorry if this turns out long. I finished my second year of medicine about a month ago, where I really struggled. In short: I was an honour student during my first year (pre-professional; before you chose whether you want medicine, dentistry, or pharmacy) and I made it into medicine. Since my first year everyone joked around telling me how they can't imagine me being me a second year and that even if I started studying in the summer I'd never catch up (I'm a slow studier) . I started second year in September, which was going well at first, but by the end of the first semester, everything started going down hill. I stopped studying less and less each time and my grades dropped. Now, second semester started, using my low grade in the first module as motivation. I started out well, attended lectures, actually studied..then about 2 weeks after, down hill again. I passed the second module, and now on to the third. Same thing, started well, down hill+personal problems. Studied less each day till I stopped studying all together and didn't cover even a quarter of the material I was supposed too, thankfully I passed this one too. On to FINALS! You'd think I'd learned my lesson now, panicked, tried to do my best to save what's left, right? Wrong. I completely shutdown, and didn't study anything (did a couple of past questions the night before). During all this, I was constantly being put down my father who saw that my behaviour/attitude/lifestyle was not fit for being a medical student and advised me to drop out numerous times. I start third year in September and I'm horrified that nothing will change, that I will still be unmotivated/lazy or whatever it was that was keeping me from doing my work even with the huge drop in my GPA scare I got. What if it keeps happening?
With all that being said, I'd like to add in that I absolutely love medicine and I'm into all the subjects and don't have much difficulty learning. Problem is with motivation, doubts about whether I'm fit to be here, etc.)
I started out writing this hoping for advice, but as I'm typing I remember the numerous times friends have tried to help me, but nothing worked ever.
Thanks to whoever actually read this, I appreciate it.
With all that being said, I'd like to add in that I absolutely love medicine and I'm into all the subjects and don't have much difficulty learning. Problem is with motivation, doubts about whether I'm fit to be here, etc.)
I started out writing this hoping for advice, but as I'm typing I remember the numerous times friends have tried to help me, but nothing worked ever.
Thanks to whoever actually read this, I appreciate it.
