Dreaming of being a physician?

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Nasrudin

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Dream. Follow you dreams. It's my dream to....

This conception. Is useless. Dangerous even.

Nobody dreams of being many other jobs. Because there's less mythology around other jobs. Not because there's anything dreamy about the doctor job.

I understand that to sustain the tremendous effort against odds, one sometimes needs to get creative with the script. I was convinced I was a comic book hero. Of the Dark Knight sort. And many of my interactions were imbued with this idea. So I understand the need.

But it's dangerous. To think of this as more than a job. That when we arrive at some distant place or work. We won't see it as a prison sentence. It will crush you if you maintain illusions for that long. Read into some of the posts on sdn. These are not monsters seeking to crush your fairy tail. These are people who came to the end. And were miserable with their lot.

You need more clinical experience than you think. You can gain more insight than is generally thought around here. If your perception isn't shallowly focused. You can use your imagination to sense your own self in the shoes of working doc's. You need to be close enough to sense their ups and downs. Not just the surface.

Then you make hard assessment. Is allllllllll this f'n work worth it? For that job?

Then your dream doesn't get shattered on the rocks. With you sent treading for your life in cold dark waters.

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You need more clinical experience than you think. You can gain more insight than is generally thought around here. If your perception isn't shallowly focused. You can use your imagination to sense your own self in the shoes of working doc's. You need to be close enough to sense their ups and downs. Not just the surface.


After seeing an acquaintance leave after the first year because their decision to matriculate into medical school was "the path of least resistance" at the time, yeaaaaaaaah.
 
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Dream. Follow you dreams. It's my dream to....

This conception. Is useless. Dangerous even.

Nobody dreams of being many other jobs. Because there's less mythology around other jobs. Not because there's anything dreamy about the doctor job.

I understand that to sustain the tremendous effort against odds, one sometimes needs to get creative with the script. I was convinced I was a comic book hero. Of the Dark Knight sort. And many of my interactions were imbued with this idea. So I understand the need.

But it's dangerous. To think of this as more than a job. That when we arrive at some distant place or work. We won't see it as a prison sentence. It will crush you if you maintain illusions for that long. Read into some of the posts on sdn. These are not monsters seeking to crush your fairy tail. These are people who came to the end. And were miserable with their lot.

You need more clinical experience than you think. You can gain more insight than is generally thought around here. If your perception isn't shallowly focused. You can use your imagination to sense your own self in the shoes of working doc's. You need to be close enough to sense their ups and downs. Not just the surface.

Then you make hard assessment. Is allllllllll this f'n work worth it? For that job?

Then your dream doesn't get shattered on the rocks. With you sent treading for your life in cold dark waters.

I agree with the basic idea, that this is just a job to support our lives.

It's hard work but there is really no other thing I'd rather be involved in.

The thing I try to avoid is the pessimism and the lack of gratitude for my position in all this. You do give a lot, but I think it's a fun ride.
 
I dream about being a physician way more often than I'd like. Even my subconscious is undermining my efforts to not live and breathe medicine 24-7. :meanie:

Exhibit A ladies and gentlemen of the jury. Get close enough to feel the pain of Interns. Hanging on the enough consciousness to not F up. With the huge responsibility of learning enough medicine to not be dangerous. On their shoulders.

I don't know about you. But when I dream of awesomeness. I'm throwing up a well timed kick to exploding fireworks. Spandex pants. And high heels struts. Guitar wailing to the screams of stadium filled idolatry.

Not what this lady is doing.
 
I agree with the basic idea, that this is just a job to support our lives.

It's hard work but there is really no other thing I'd rather be involved in.

The thing I try to avoid is the pessimism and the lack of gratitude for my position in all this. You do give a lot, but I think it's a fun ride.

Yeah. I agree completely. With the right, grounded perspective. It's a lovely career. And as crazy as the volume is....at least I'm learning something. Something useful--I tell myself to keep from losing it.

But yeah. I'm very grateful for the opportunity to perform this function for people. But realism and perspective helps sustain when things are rough. Like the sheer boredom of 1st year. Or as I imagine, for Q now.

Dreams and mythos. Disaster.
 
After seeing an acquaintance leave after the first year because their decision to matriculate into medical school was "the path of least resistance" at the time, yeaaaaaaaah.

To be honest, the first two years of med school is nothing like clinical medicine. How does shadowing a doctor prepare you for cadavers, glycolysis, and Peyer's Patches? It doesn't.
 
To be honest, the first two years of med school is nothing like clinical medicine. How does shadowing a doctor prepare you for cadavers, glycolysis, and Peyer's Patches? It doesn't.


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Certainly not, but if you're already dreaming of doing something else besides becoming a clinician long before you even get to medical school, I would imagine it's going to be a long, painful road.

Something something hindsight is 20/20 something.
 
Yeah. I agree completely. With the right, grounded perspective. It's a lovely career. And as crazy as the volume is....at least I'm learning something. Something useful--I tell myself to keep from losing it.

But yeah. I'm very grateful for the opportunity to perform this function for people. But realism and perspective helps sustain when things are rough. Like the sheer boredom of 1st year. Or as I imagine, for Q now.

Dreams and mythos. Disaster.

Nas, I'm glad to see that your attitude has improved from last years "this is horrible, I am doomed." to a more typical nasrudin-like, "the world is doomed and I'm just along for the ride."

This gives me hope that my current attitude of "oh no, what have I gotten myself into?" is going to improve next year to, "oh, ok, I can do this."
 
Our you can become a doctor, have the money to buy the best musical equipment, and play in a band as well like my rhythm guitar player does. ER Doc during the day, monster of mayhem at one night out of the week. I swear he skips when he walks.
 
Nas, I'm glad to see that your attitude has improved from last years "this is horrible, I am doomed." to a more typical nasrudin-like, "the world is doomed and I'm just along for the ride."

This gives me hope that my current attitude of "oh no, what have I gotten myself into?" is going to improve next year to, "oh, ok, I can do this."

Thanks man. I appreciate that. My head really has swung 180 on things. On all things.

Hard for me to say why exactly. Young adulthood piss and vinegar. And anti-authority anger. Ran it's course. Exhaustion has a certain wisdom. And I have realized the gravity of the responsibility we're taking on.

More innocent. Long dormant but more fundamental aspects of my personality have resurfaced. I always wanted to be useful. It's one of my earliest instincts. I am finally. At ease being me. And with the identity of being a physician. Which is total. Leaving room for little else.

Smooth sail towards the setting sun. And a fine career. Something I can be proud of. I'm very happy.

I wish you the same. 1st year for me was more difficult. Even though this year the volume is higher. The speed faster. You start to develop and instinct for spending your energy with more precision.

I hope you have a good year. If you're still at it next year. You did perfectly well.
 
Thanks man. I appreciate that. My head really has swung 180 on things. On all things.

Hard for me to say why exactly. Young adulthood piss and vinegar. And anti-authority anger. Ran it's course. Exhaustion has a certain wisdom. And I have realized the gravity of the responsibility we're taking on.

More innocent. Long dormant but more fundamental aspects of my personality have resurfaced. I always wanted to be useful. It's one of my earliest instincts. I am finally. At ease being me. And with the identity of being a physician. Which is total. Leaving room for little else.

Smooth sail towards the setting sun. And a fine career. Something I can be proud of. I'm very happy.

I wish you the same. 1st year for me was more difficult. Even though this year the volume is higher. The speed faster. You start to develop and instinct for spending your energy with more precision.

I hope you have a good year. If you're still at it next year. You did perfectly well.

Happy for you bro. Keep up the good fight. You will be great.
 
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