Feeling...not good

[LupaCupcake]

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This is a total vent thread. That is my disclaimer...you were warned.

This week has been rough. At this point I have done everything I needed to do, everything turned in on time, everything done for work so on and so forth. I know I will get good grades on everything from this week, but I feel 🙁 right now.

You know how you can go through a class and you "get" everything, you can go through a class and you sorta get everything or the ones that just look like 😱.

Even when I feel like 😱 I self study and research until I am 😀, but lately I don't feel like I am able to do as much as I used to. I get my classes...I am doing good, all of my grades thus far have been A's so I am not complaining. I just...I usually KNOW I will get an A, I don't feel relieved when I see it is an A. I am not able to put in as much time as I usually do with school because I have so much going on.

I sound ridiculous don't I? The point is, it is hard to juggle a heavy workload (fast tracking degree) fulltime job, taking care of the house (has to be immaculate for my daycare because I get random inspections from health, fire, safety and my boss at anytime) being a mom and a wife. I am getting more regular kids in my daycare lately which happens the longer you are open, but that is what I feel is sorta pushing me over the edge.

An increased school workload is hard enough....a full time job is work enough...being a parent is work enough....I juggle all of it somehow and I will continue to juggle it , but I have just been really stressed this week and I am still feeling it.

I will actually be relieved when med school starts because I won't have to work full time anymore while I am doing so much school work. It will feel like a heavy burden taken off of my shoulders to be able to just focus on my studies and my family.

I posted this here because many of you have kids and work. Thanks for letting me vent . I can't say this to my husband, well I CAN...but he just says "you chose this, stop taking on so much". I will not lower my school work load because that is not the problem and that is my priority. I was handling the increased work load just fine. It is my business growing that is giving me stress and the housework. Owkay, I am done whining lol.

I want a secretary and a maid for Christmas 😀

 

[whatbout2morrow]

Why don't you stop accepting new kids into the daycare?

I stopped working two jobs almost six months ago. Not having the extra money sucks. But it's much better than being stressed 24/7, out of shape, not having a life, not having any friends, etc etc.

 

[LupaCupcake]

I think I need to. I don't like saying No to people...it is a weakness of mine, but at this point I can't take on anymore.

They keep asking me to do backup care for some other daycare roviders when they need it. I am not sure why. My husband said "because you always say yes when they ask you". I can't keep doing that.

I could take on the max amount of kids if I was not doing school as well, but I am and the reality is I have to swallow my pride and admit that I can't do the max amount of kids, a heavy school load and the house. I feel weak saying that...the warrior ethos from the military pop into my mind of "I will never accept defeat, I will never give in". I feel somewhat ashamed to say I can't handle max children and my studies.

I can still keep my daycare open and do this, I just can't have any more kids. I suppose I shouldn't be ashamed of that, I'll still be working full time and doing heavy school, but I feel like I am admitting defeat or something.

ehh.....you probably want to smack me or something after this post lol. I know it probably sounds like someone b**ching & moaning

 

[UpwardTrend]

Work less. Taking on a little more debt now may be worth it. A little extra undergrad debt is a drop in the bucket at this point. Being that selfless could jeopardize your goals. Your boss and those parents probably wouldn't put their future on the line for you.

 

[LupaCupcake]

I think I'm going to stick with the kids I have..no more...I know my boss is going to try and talk me out of it and be like ohhhhh you will be fine, come on..just try to take on more kids, but the second I TRY t otake on more kids that means I have to go through a formal process of essentially kicking them out of my daycare program if I decide no, That is a hassle for me and the parents not to mention it might hurt the kids feelings. I don't want them to think I don't like them or it is their fault, I love kids even when I'm exhausted lol.

 

[Jack is Back]

If you can't say "no" to those making unfruitful demands on your time, it will be very hard to succeed as a medical student.

I used to think there were somethings impeding people from entering medical school, and while this may be the case in the minority, the things that people think are keeping some from being successful applicants are typically the same things that would keep them from being good medical students.

So in that respect, the whole application process is almost like a self-selection process.

Adjust and do what you need to. Good luck.