This has the potential to be a very long post, but I will keep it short (as much as I can).
I am (barely) graduating from a top 15 school (hint: it is well known for sports) this semester. I will be graduating as a physics major with a GPA of 2.4 (science GPA of 2.1). Knock off 0.5 on both since AMCAS factors in failed grades (quite a few.. which eventually got retaken). Very surprising since this came from the perfect HS student on track to becoming a MD.
The story
My first year obvious symptoms of serious anxiety started to manifest (inability to focus, avoidance & fear of basic tasks, anti-social, progressive weight gain, issues sleeping etc.). On top of all that, I was struggling with issues of figuring out my faith and finding meaning in my life. I somewhat attributed the symptoms above to this personal issue. Overall, it got much better as senior year approached, as I have created methods to manage to my health (creating a personal journal, daily exercise, strict diet + sleep routine, etc.) throughout the past few years.
Bottom Line
Once I return to my home state, I will probably take a year off until summer 2019. There is a respectable state school where I can finish my degree within 2.5 years (taking a full load of 18 hours all semesters + a ton of summer classes). I will be around 25k in debt at graduation (just tuition since I will be living with parents). I can get a degree in Chemistry this time. I can shadow within those three years. I can get recommendations within those 3 years. I only had one extracurricular in college that I was passionate about but I can also continue that within those 3 years (that extracurricular will probably be the topic of my essay... it is volunteering based & it helped me sort out my issues quite a lot).
I don't think an SMP or masters (which will both be stressful and even more expensive) can fix my first undergraduate attempt. The same way a totaled car cannot be fixed.
I am aware also of the stigma against these type of health issues. By the time I apply, I will be at least 4 years apart from that experience with a whole new portfolio of strong factors (new gpa, LOR, shadowing, etc.). I will definitely need to create a positive story out of this and sell it.
Is that my best course of action? Is it wise to even mention that on my application?
I am (barely) graduating from a top 15 school (hint: it is well known for sports) this semester. I will be graduating as a physics major with a GPA of 2.4 (science GPA of 2.1). Knock off 0.5 on both since AMCAS factors in failed grades (quite a few.. which eventually got retaken). Very surprising since this came from the perfect HS student on track to becoming a MD.
The story
My first year obvious symptoms of serious anxiety started to manifest (inability to focus, avoidance & fear of basic tasks, anti-social, progressive weight gain, issues sleeping etc.). On top of all that, I was struggling with issues of figuring out my faith and finding meaning in my life. I somewhat attributed the symptoms above to this personal issue. Overall, it got much better as senior year approached, as I have created methods to manage to my health (creating a personal journal, daily exercise, strict diet + sleep routine, etc.) throughout the past few years.
Bottom Line
Once I return to my home state, I will probably take a year off until summer 2019. There is a respectable state school where I can finish my degree within 2.5 years (taking a full load of 18 hours all semesters + a ton of summer classes). I will be around 25k in debt at graduation (just tuition since I will be living with parents). I can get a degree in Chemistry this time. I can shadow within those three years. I can get recommendations within those 3 years. I only had one extracurricular in college that I was passionate about but I can also continue that within those 3 years (that extracurricular will probably be the topic of my essay... it is volunteering based & it helped me sort out my issues quite a lot).
I don't think an SMP or masters (which will both be stressful and even more expensive) can fix my first undergraduate attempt. The same way a totaled car cannot be fixed.
I am aware also of the stigma against these type of health issues. By the time I apply, I will be at least 4 years apart from that experience with a whole new portfolio of strong factors (new gpa, LOR, shadowing, etc.). I will definitely need to create a positive story out of this and sell it.
Is that my best course of action? Is it wise to even mention that on my application?