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Id appreciate any insight into what seems like an impossible predicament:
Please bare with me as this will be quite long.
I am a Canadian citizen currently at a Canadian university doing a thesis-based Masters in one of the research sciences (Molecular Bio / Micro Bi/ Biochem).
I have done extensive research into what Id like to pursue after, and based on shadowing and what my friends are doing, have determined that dentistry will be the career that I will enjoy the most and offer me the lifestyle I would most want. I will be applying solely to American dental schools, and I am planning on writing the US DAT and have all my GPAs (+/-, ogpa, sgpa, etc.) near, or above 3.5. Ive written the MCAT before and have managed to score over 30, so Id like to believe that I could do relatively well on the DAT.
I am 1 year and a couple of months into my Masters, and have done what I feel is decent work towards what my supervisor keeps telling me will be a third author publication (eventually). I have also just completed all my course requirements (except for one ongoing course for which I will receive credit for (3) once two years is up).
The problem is, throughout my first year, I have struggled with the decision of leaving the program. The big hurdle is that I did not do undergraduate research, and when my supervisor offered me the position, I made it clear that I was apprehensive due to lack of training and experience. He kept telling me that this was not a problem; that many labs would want this as it meant that I would be mouldable. The problem is that my supervisor is planning on retiring real soon, and I am the only graduate student left in the lab. It is myself, him, and our lab tech. On top of that, he is the hands-off, let the student be kind of prof. This works for many people, but I find it very difficult as I am trying things over and over and feel that I am extremely inefficient most of the time. I have approached him before about this, but he NEVER offers any criticism in any form and past students have complained about his pat-on-the-back attitude. I have had one recent committee meeting, and all my committee members believe that I will finish my experimentation this time next year (2011 winter) after which I can begin writing my thesis. I am sceptical, and my mental health is suffering from this ordeal. I no longer enjoy what I do. My supervisor is nice, but I strongly feel that I am getting too much independence (and that this isnt an issue of being lazy) and am fearful that I will continue to dig myself a deeper hole from a lack of direction. Ive tried talking to him about this, but I think that at this point in his career, things are unlikely to change.
So I feel that I have three options:
1.) Leave the program on good terms; offer to wrap up my work by spring and in May, begin a back-up course-based diploma program that Ive looked into and get on with my life (and go ahead with DENT applications for the first time after writing my first DAT). Problem is Id likely have to explain why I left the Masters for job interviews, etc. (anything I do down the road), and Im not sure how DENT admissions will look at this ( I will also be able to obtain statements from doctors Ive seen in regards to my mental health, but this may present problems in itself). The positives are that I get myself out of something that I feel is damaging to my confidence and that I have no real enjoyment in doing. (the diploma program will offer a GPA boost and hopefully lead to a nice backup career)
2.) Stay the course, doing what I can slowly but surely. Write the DAT, apply in early summer, and hope I gain acceptance into a school in December. Run the risk that the Masters will drag out longer than expected, but know that I will surely complete it by the time school would start 2012 Sept. However, suffer whatever circumstances staying in the program will have on my well-being. Even though I get a stipend, Id be able to make a lot more working full-time out of science to make some money before matriculation for the expensive DENT tuition.
3.) Have the idea that the Masters is only a fall-back. Hold the intention to leave once (if) I gain admission, and work in something else to better manage my debt. Problem is: will most schools make it a conditional acceptance and make it obligatory that I complete my thesis before starting in September? Potential target schools: (bu, nyu, tufts, usc, udm, uop, temple)
Please help; believe me when I say that I have spent way too much labouring over this decision. It is an extremely tough dilemma.
Thanks so much for listening and for any input!
Please bare with me as this will be quite long.
I am a Canadian citizen currently at a Canadian university doing a thesis-based Masters in one of the research sciences (Molecular Bio / Micro Bi/ Biochem).
I have done extensive research into what Id like to pursue after, and based on shadowing and what my friends are doing, have determined that dentistry will be the career that I will enjoy the most and offer me the lifestyle I would most want. I will be applying solely to American dental schools, and I am planning on writing the US DAT and have all my GPAs (+/-, ogpa, sgpa, etc.) near, or above 3.5. Ive written the MCAT before and have managed to score over 30, so Id like to believe that I could do relatively well on the DAT.
I am 1 year and a couple of months into my Masters, and have done what I feel is decent work towards what my supervisor keeps telling me will be a third author publication (eventually). I have also just completed all my course requirements (except for one ongoing course for which I will receive credit for (3) once two years is up).
The problem is, throughout my first year, I have struggled with the decision of leaving the program. The big hurdle is that I did not do undergraduate research, and when my supervisor offered me the position, I made it clear that I was apprehensive due to lack of training and experience. He kept telling me that this was not a problem; that many labs would want this as it meant that I would be mouldable. The problem is that my supervisor is planning on retiring real soon, and I am the only graduate student left in the lab. It is myself, him, and our lab tech. On top of that, he is the hands-off, let the student be kind of prof. This works for many people, but I find it very difficult as I am trying things over and over and feel that I am extremely inefficient most of the time. I have approached him before about this, but he NEVER offers any criticism in any form and past students have complained about his pat-on-the-back attitude. I have had one recent committee meeting, and all my committee members believe that I will finish my experimentation this time next year (2011 winter) after which I can begin writing my thesis. I am sceptical, and my mental health is suffering from this ordeal. I no longer enjoy what I do. My supervisor is nice, but I strongly feel that I am getting too much independence (and that this isnt an issue of being lazy) and am fearful that I will continue to dig myself a deeper hole from a lack of direction. Ive tried talking to him about this, but I think that at this point in his career, things are unlikely to change.
So I feel that I have three options:
1.) Leave the program on good terms; offer to wrap up my work by spring and in May, begin a back-up course-based diploma program that Ive looked into and get on with my life (and go ahead with DENT applications for the first time after writing my first DAT). Problem is Id likely have to explain why I left the Masters for job interviews, etc. (anything I do down the road), and Im not sure how DENT admissions will look at this ( I will also be able to obtain statements from doctors Ive seen in regards to my mental health, but this may present problems in itself). The positives are that I get myself out of something that I feel is damaging to my confidence and that I have no real enjoyment in doing. (the diploma program will offer a GPA boost and hopefully lead to a nice backup career)
2.) Stay the course, doing what I can slowly but surely. Write the DAT, apply in early summer, and hope I gain acceptance into a school in December. Run the risk that the Masters will drag out longer than expected, but know that I will surely complete it by the time school would start 2012 Sept. However, suffer whatever circumstances staying in the program will have on my well-being. Even though I get a stipend, Id be able to make a lot more working full-time out of science to make some money before matriculation for the expensive DENT tuition.
3.) Have the idea that the Masters is only a fall-back. Hold the intention to leave once (if) I gain admission, and work in something else to better manage my debt. Problem is: will most schools make it a conditional acceptance and make it obligatory that I complete my thesis before starting in September? Potential target schools: (bu, nyu, tufts, usc, udm, uop, temple)
Please help; believe me when I say that I have spent way too much labouring over this decision. It is an extremely tough dilemma.
Thanks so much for listening and for any input!