i, too, share some of your feelings. at the beginning, i thought i would feel better when amcas was over, then when secondaries are over, then when interviews are over, then when i finally get accepted.
i don't want to seem like 'poor little rich girl' here because i know that i am very fortunate to have been accepted to medical school. but i also still feel like a neurotic mess and kind of want to commiserate. i think that i have pretty severe OCD and now that i finally can chill out, i still find myself checking my mail/voice mail/email like a banchee. i wish that i could just feel happier. but this is a very lonely process and very nerve-wracking. it seems horrible to think 'i'll feel better when i've decided on a school, heard from everyone, or actually started classes' because there will ALWAYS be something to worry about.
one of my new years resolutions was to live more in the present and try to just be happy where things are. so i share my frustrations and worries with you guys along with my own pledge to change that. we are all going to be okay, no matter what happens, there's always a window open. we are young and have clearly enough drive to do SOMETHING with our lives.
you gotta laugh a little, cry a little....
