Yeah, I think I would enjoy doing those doctor things, from what I've seen of medicine. Plus I guess it's better than running a 7/11 or doing programming (my other potential career choices).
I just question if it's worth it, and I don't think it is anymore. It's barely over a year in, and my body's fitness level has gone to pot, I've become addicted to caffeine, and my old sense of optimism and happiness has slowly eroded away to nothing.
Let' not even get into the financial aspects of the situation: I'm a med student who has failed multiple classes, and I'm not stupid, I know nothing will erase the mark that has on my C.V. My residency prospects are minimal beyond FP or Peds. And while those are fine careers, I don't think they are fine enough to justify an upfront fee of $300K, a decade of lost income and investments, and the horrific effects that medical school has had on me as a person.
Yea I used the Robbins Questions and Firecracker along with school-provided practice questions, I tried USMLE-Rx, but those didn't really match what was being tested so I decided to save them. I mean, when I failed some classes in MS1, I knew in the back of my head that I wasn't working hard enough, so I doubled my efforts and didn't fail anything else (and successfully remediated what I did fail). But now, I did everything I could, and I'm at wit's end as to what else I can do.