I just started M1, and I really do enjoy where I am. The environment at my school is very positive and cooperative, my roommates are turning out to be great friends, and I find the material so far to be really interesting (albeit overwhelming at times). But whenever I hear about my friends or my girlfriend back home going out, being social, and generally having a good time, I get kinda down in the dumps. Like, I feel as if I'm wasting my prime years. Even worse, the knowledge that my friends will be making great memories without me kills me inside. I wanna just get out of the room and do something but all of my classmates are studying (as I was for the past couple hours) and it's too late for me to just go for a walk around the streets. Other than study there isn't much to do in my apartment. I feel trapped and depressed and I just have no idea how to deal with it. I know medicine is the career for me; I really can't see myself doing anything else. I just hate that I have to miss out on so much to attain that goal. Call me a baby, fine; I know it's part of growing up, but it's just how I feel. How do I deal with this? As of right now all I do is study, work out, dick around on the internet, and go out with my roommates maybe once a week.