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- Nov 24, 2019
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I am an immigrant turned US citizen. My father is a neurologist. He attained a D.O. degree from the NYITCOM émigré program. I watched him as he went through medical school. I was inspired to be a D.O. I was always academically bright. Let alone saying I scored in the 98th percentile of the SATs and a 4.5/4.0 high school GPA. In my senior year, I got into 14/17 colleges that I applied to. I had to decide between going premed at Berkeley, BS/DO, or BS/MD at SLU Medical School. I committed to BS/DO instead of BS/MD because I felt more personally connected to the DO route. One day, I discovered this SDN site. I maintained a 4.0 throughout undergrad and outperformed many non BS/DO students who went to MD schools. Suddenly after seeing the negativity that is spread among SDNers about the DO's really make me questions my existence. I am getting negatively obsessed over this whole MD v. DO comparison. Why. I never really felt bad about my choice to go to a DO school over an MD school until now that I am here at SDN, AFTER getting into both types of medical school and kicking thousands of students in the abdomen. I am kicking butts in the BS/DO program; however, I feel that I will not be valued as much anymore like I used to when I dreamt of becoming a DO when I was in middle school because of SDN. I feel every time that if I had accepted my BS/MD acceptance, I would be doing much better in regards to the society? There are many in SDN to demotivate. Is there anyone to actually motivate, which was particularly a reason why SDN was created? I am doing work as a robot because of this hatred; I am doing the work well but I feel empty. I am not enjoying my accomplishments. I am not enjoying family time. A sea full of negativity splashes through my mind thinking all it would have taken for me to be on the safe side of the internet would be to just have accepted my BS/MD. SDN is making me feel down for what I wanted; as if I should not be happy or content with life. I am just in a mixed place where I can not stop thinking how my life would have been happier going into my MD school, which logically makes no sense. I am upset, confused, irritated. It really did not have to be this hard. There are many medical degrees in the world; US decides to have only two and suddenly everyone has to condescend one or the other. Do they not understand the hard work we have to go through?