I had an epiphany

[doc baller]

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I am an MS3 and I should have started residency last July. The reason that I am behind is because of severe MDD and GAD. I have come to the realization that the only reason that I am stubbornly hanging on to this career path is because of three of my friends who matched last year. We went to undergrad together and took all the same classes. We all studied together. I was the competitive type A personality with tunnel vision to become a physician. They were just some chill dudes who were figuring out their path. I encouraged them to become physicians and tutored them in organic chemistry and physics. I ended up going to a US allopathic medical school while they ended up going to Ross University in the Caribbean. Needless to say I significantly outperformed them in undergrad courses and the MCAT. Now I am some loser with psychiatric issues while they are in residency. I use to resent their success but now I am at peace with it. However, I still refuse to quit.

 

[Law2Doc]

I am an MS3 and I should have started residency last July. The reason that I am behind is because of severe MDD and GAD. I have come to the realization that the only reason that I am stubbornly hanging on to this career path is because of three of my friends who matched last year. We went to undergrad together and took all the same classes. We all studied together. I was the competitive type A personality with tunnel vision to become a physician. They were just some chill dudes who were figuring out their path. I encouraged them to become physicians and tutored them in organic chemistry and physics. I ended up going to a US allopathic medical school while they ended up going to Ross University in the Caribbean. Needless to say I significantly outperformed them in undergrad courses and the MCAT. Now I am some loser with psychiatric issues while they are in residency. I use to resent their success but now I am at peace with it. However, I still refuse to quit.

Not clear what your epiphany is. With MDD and GAD you probably would have the same hurdles even without knowing others in the field. Other people's successes and failures are not your own and are irrelevant - a focus on what others have accomplished or how easy they may have had it is unhealthy. Keep your eyes on your own plate. This is an obstacle course we each run individually ith different things that mst stop each of us up. So you tutored someone who is now better off than you. BFD. You don't think every person in any form of education hasnt tight someone who has gone on to do impressive things? You will have an awful life if you spend it thinking "why not me". Eyes on your own prize is the only epiphany your story merits.

 

[colbgw02]

I had some fried pickles yesterday, but they were substandard.

 

[doc baller]

Not clear what your epiphany is. With MDD and GAD you probably would have the same hurdles even without knowing others in the field. Other people's successes and failures are not your own and are irrelevant - a focus on what others have accomplished or how easy they may have had it is unhealthy. Keep your eyes on your own plate. This is an obstacle course we each run individually ith different things that mst stop each of us up. So you tutored someone who is now better off than you. BFD. You don't think every person in any form of education hasnt tight someone who has gone on to do impressive things? You will have an awful life if you spend it thinking "why not me". Eyes on your own prize is the only epiphany your story merits.

My epiphany is that I'm holding onto medicine for unhealthy reasons. I'm going to finish my degree but my journey in clinical medicine will stop after I complete my degree. I have a family friend in a pharmaceutical company that has offered me a pretty good job after I complete my degree and I'm ready to accept it.

 

[giantswing]

I had some fried pickles yesterday, but they were substandard.

Fried pickles are the best.

 

[doc baller]

I had some fried pickles yesterday, but they were substandard.

Please don't derail my thread. Thanks.

 

[colbgw02]

Not meant as a derailment. I thought this was the thread where we shared random information about ourselves.

 

[Law2Doc]

My epiphany is that I'm holding onto medicine for unhealthy reasons. I'm going to finish my degree but my journey in clinical medicine will stop after I complete my degree. I have a family friend in a pharmaceutical company that has offered me a pretty good job after I complete my degree and I'm ready to accept it.

Nothing you have posted leads one to think you need to drop out of medicine altogether, certainly not the fact that you know a few people who succeeded from Ross. Which is why we are confused and talking pickles. But if you found a path you enjoy more power to you

 

[doc baller]

Nothing you have posted leads one to think you need to drop out of medicine altogether, certainly not the fact that you know a few people who succeeded from Ross. Which is why we are confused and talking pickles. But if you found a path you enjoy more power to you

Thanks. I just foolishly assumed that people would look at my posting history for context.

 

[P Diddy]

Thanks. I just foolishly assumed that people would look at my posting history for context.

you're pretty cute.

p diddy

 

[doc baller]

you're pretty cute.

p diddy

It's just diddy now bro.

 

[alwaysastudent2]

Wait, which specialty would you like to get into? Do you have a specific interest. I would recommend to chose residency specialties which are not too intense and demanding. Maybe not surgery or ob-gyn, since it may be too stressful. May be Ophthalmology, derm since you are allo grad 🙂 I wouldn't give up. You've sacrificed too much to give up now. Cheers!

 

[doc baller]

Wait, which specialty would you like to get into? Do you have a specific interest. I would recommend to chose residency specialties which are not too intense and demanding. Maybe not surgery or ob-gyn, since it may be too stressful. May be Ophthalmology, derm since you are allo grad 🙂 I wouldn't give up. You've sacrificed too much to give up now. Cheers!

I have a unique opportunity to obtain a 40 hours/week $150,000 per year job without doing residency. I have very significant MDD and GAD. I also have a family history of MDD and GAD(My father and paternal grandmother) so it isn't pragmatic for me to continue.

 

[alwaysastudent2]

I have a unique opportunity to obtain a 40 hours/week $150,000 per year job without doing residency. I have very significant MDD and GAD. I also have a family history of MDD and GAD(My father and paternal grandmother) so it isn't pragmatic for me to continue.

Well you have your answer then. When you wrote refuse to quit I thought you meant residency.

 

[Gastrapathy]

Be a shrink. Your job could evaporate and there will always be people who need shrinks. Give you lots of time to work on yourself too.

 

[rokshana]

I have a unique opportunity to obtain a 40 hours/week $150,000 per year job without doing residency. I have very significant MDD and GAD. I also have a family history of MDD and GAD(My father and paternal grandmother) so it isn't pragmatic for me to continue.

take the job…

 

[LostinLift]

It's just diddy now bro.

Actually he's back to Puff Daddy

 

[doc baller]

take the job…

Thanks I will. I am going to finish my degree and take the job.

 

[SouthernSurgeon]

Be a shrink. Your job could evaporate and there will always be people who need shrinks. Give you lots of time to work on yourself too.

Exactly.

It is this sort of line of thinking:

I have a unique opportunity to obtain a 40 hours/week $150,000 per year job without doing residency.

That leads to people posting threads here about "how do I get back into clinical medicine"

Some pharma job obtained through nepotism is not exactly a stable long term career plan. And while it won't be the same hours as residency, any concept that this would lead to easy money without having to work hard for it is foolish.

 

[doc baller]

Exactly.

It is this sort of line of thinking:



That leads to people posting threads here about "how do I get back into clinical medicine"

Some pharma job obtained through nepotism is not exactly a stable long term career plan. And while it won't be the same hours as residency, any concept that this would lead to easy money without having to work hard for it is foolish.

Exactly.

It is this sort of line of thinking:



That leads to people posting threads here about "how do I get back into clinical medicine"

Some pharma job obtained through nepotism is not exactly a stable long term career plan. And while it won't be the same hours as residency, any concept that this would lead to easy money without having to work hard for it is foolish.

It maybe foolish but I consider putting myself in a situation where I might kill myself to be even more foolish.

 

[alwaysastudent2]

We'll if it's a potential life and death matter, then yes you are right. It's just regular jobs can be stressful too, as it doesn't take much for a predisposed individual to have a breakdown.

 

[thesauce]

I have a unique opportunity to obtain a 40 hours/week $150,000 per year job without doing residency. I have very significant MDD and GAD. I also have a family history of MDD and GAD(My father and paternal grandmother) so it isn't pragmatic for me to continue.

What does your family history have to do with this?

 

[jakeislove]

Be a shrink. Your job could evaporate and there will always be people who need shrinks. Give you lots of time to work on yourself too.

If he were diabetic, would you recommend Endocrinologist? 🙂

 

[chooks]

Along the clinical side, you could think about Pathology. If you are specific in what you do (AP only/CP only) you can be fully subspecialized in 4 years (3 years AP only or CP only training + 1 year fellowship). CP only is very light - about 24 months of core rotations (general 8-5, depending on call schedules) and then 12 months of electives/research.

Not a huge fan of fried pickles. More of a wings guy.

 

[funshi baba]

You are going to be taking care of people and their lives is in your hands. Either you focus on yourself and forget about everything else aroud you or get out of medicine because it will only get harder.

 

[Frederica]

I am an MS3 and I should have started residency last July. The reason that I am behind is because of severe MDD and GAD. I have come to the realization that the only reason that I am stubbornly hanging on to this career path is because of three of my friends who matched last year. We went to undergrad together and took all the same classes. We all studied together. I was the competitive type A personality with tunnel vision to become a physician. They were just some chill dudes who were figuring out their path. I encouraged them to become physicians and tutored them in organic chemistry and physics. I ended up going to a US allopathic medical school while they ended up going to Ross University in the Caribbean. Needless to say I significantly outperformed them in undergrad courses and the MCAT. Now I am some loser with psychiatric issues while they are in residency. I use to resent their success but now I am at peace with it. However, I still refuse to quit.

Hi doc baller,
Many, many people have started down one path in life (yours truly) and ended up in profession they did not expect. Some times it takes people longer to realize what they want to do (yours truly) than it takes others. What is most important is your happiness and not where other people are on their life journey. Who knows, the people you feel are ahead of you on their journey may burnout after 10-15 years but proceed because they don't feel they have any other choice and aren't happy.

As Casey Kasem used to say, "Keep your feet on the ground and keep reaching for the stars."

Cheers,
Freddie