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Update: first attending job still a go in just over a month. Finishing up residency by doing a stint on inpatient. I was named in a lawsuit based on something that happened when I was an intern, and the case was dropped with prejudice.
Today, I was discharging someone. They were not benefiting from care, engaging in care seeking/care rejecting, splitting staff, all the classic stuff. I could take the personal attacks, the emotional manipulation, the if-I-end-my-life-out-there-it-will-be-your-fault. I knew discharge was the right thing to do, and to keep them was the wrong thing to do.
I could not take it when I walked into their room and they were on the phone and I heard them say "lawyer." I didn't hear the context, and based on my knowledge of their life it's conceivable that it was related to something else.
But I can't do this twice before I'm even out of residency. I made it through the day somehow but I've been having low-grade panic symptoms all day. I know I am a good psychiatrist. But who else will look at this history and think so?
Today, I was discharging someone. They were not benefiting from care, engaging in care seeking/care rejecting, splitting staff, all the classic stuff. I could take the personal attacks, the emotional manipulation, the if-I-end-my-life-out-there-it-will-be-your-fault. I knew discharge was the right thing to do, and to keep them was the wrong thing to do.
I could not take it when I walked into their room and they were on the phone and I heard them say "lawyer." I didn't hear the context, and based on my knowledge of their life it's conceivable that it was related to something else.
But I can't do this twice before I'm even out of residency. I made it through the day somehow but I've been having low-grade panic symptoms all day. I know I am a good psychiatrist. But who else will look at this history and think so?