I would truly appreciate the help of everyone on here because I know how helpful and courteous you all can be but I need the harsh truth. Here goes:
My goal has always been to become a physician and it's something that my mom wanted for me (which drives me towards working harder bc of the sacrifices she makes for me). However, I was never in any accelerated programs except for AP in high school, and despite changing up studying styles numerous times in college while seeking tutoring and help from professors, I didnt do well in my undergrad science courses (sGPA = 2.96, cGPA = 3.6; got a D in Orgo 1, C's in Bio 1 +2, biochem, B's in rest of MCAT science courses except for physics (A's). MCAT score = 501; so I am currently taking post-bacc courses to boost my sGPA but these courses are extremely difficult and despite coming to class prepared and studying daily as if I have an exam the next day, I struggle with understanding concepts in class. Despite going to office hours also, whenever we do in-class problems, I feel like everyone understands everything so quickly while it takes me time, and I always feel lost. I felt this way throughout high school and undergrad, believing me to think that I am not smart enough to excel in med school. Don;t get me wrong, I put in so much hard work but always come up short in my hard sciences despite having a 4.0 with non-sciences (social sciences, psych, health, gen eds ,etc.).
Although only 1 month into my post-bacc program, I already feel like the practice problems and homework in my biology courses are difficult and might end up lowering my cGPA when the purpose of the post-bacc was to increase it. I want to be at a level where I can excel in med school because I know how much worse it is in med school, but if I can't excel now, is it worth it? Should I switch careers? I have this dream and I feel like I've given it my all, so should I face the fact that I am not capable enough to become a doctor? I thought that studying hard sciences more sharply + retaking the MCAT would allow me to have a change at applying soon, but now I'm not so sure. I really believed the quote that "you can do anything you put your mind towards", but now I just wonder if I am not capable. As a Christian, I do NOT want to fall into that "God has a plan for everyone" excuse, nor do I want to quit, but I wonder if this just isnt for me.
I would greatly appreciate honest advice, and I promise I can take the hit. This is a major decision of my life that I want to hear about from fellow people in my area. Thank you, I would greatly appreciate all your input.
My goal has always been to become a physician and it's something that my mom wanted for me (which drives me towards working harder bc of the sacrifices she makes for me). However, I was never in any accelerated programs except for AP in high school, and despite changing up studying styles numerous times in college while seeking tutoring and help from professors, I didnt do well in my undergrad science courses (sGPA = 2.96, cGPA = 3.6; got a D in Orgo 1, C's in Bio 1 +2, biochem, B's in rest of MCAT science courses except for physics (A's). MCAT score = 501; so I am currently taking post-bacc courses to boost my sGPA but these courses are extremely difficult and despite coming to class prepared and studying daily as if I have an exam the next day, I struggle with understanding concepts in class. Despite going to office hours also, whenever we do in-class problems, I feel like everyone understands everything so quickly while it takes me time, and I always feel lost. I felt this way throughout high school and undergrad, believing me to think that I am not smart enough to excel in med school. Don;t get me wrong, I put in so much hard work but always come up short in my hard sciences despite having a 4.0 with non-sciences (social sciences, psych, health, gen eds ,etc.).
Although only 1 month into my post-bacc program, I already feel like the practice problems and homework in my biology courses are difficult and might end up lowering my cGPA when the purpose of the post-bacc was to increase it. I want to be at a level where I can excel in med school because I know how much worse it is in med school, but if I can't excel now, is it worth it? Should I switch careers? I have this dream and I feel like I've given it my all, so should I face the fact that I am not capable enough to become a doctor? I thought that studying hard sciences more sharply + retaking the MCAT would allow me to have a change at applying soon, but now I'm not so sure. I really believed the quote that "you can do anything you put your mind towards", but now I just wonder if I am not capable. As a Christian, I do NOT want to fall into that "God has a plan for everyone" excuse, nor do I want to quit, but I wonder if this just isnt for me.
I would greatly appreciate honest advice, and I promise I can take the hit. This is a major decision of my life that I want to hear about from fellow people in my area. Thank you, I would greatly appreciate all your input.
