It kinda sounds like you suffer from low self esteem and an inflated ego. Which means you feel like **** about yourself, but you still think you're better than everyone else.
Or, maybe you just need to get laid and things will work itself out.
I don't have low self esteem or an inflated ego, and I didn't mean that. Im not saying that everyone at my college is like that even though it came across as that way. I have been very fortunate to make some great friends and meet some great people here. I guess I said those things out of frustration.
Haha maybe…..
Since this is SDN, and it's filled with a bunch of jackasses like myself, I'm going to pose a few questions:
How exactly does a recovering high-school social reject suddenly blossom into Mr. Cool in college?
Other than feelings of self-entitlement, what exactly about you deserves the best girls?
You do understand that the best girls go for the Alpha Male. Last time I watched Mad Men, the Alpha Male doesn't spend his day whining about life and why he can't get any.
Bottom-Line: Go for someone who won't reject you. 
Who said I was Mr.Cool? All I said was that im not socially awkward and have friends now, and I did that with the help of some of very good people.
Well what exactly entitles anyone to deserve the best? A medal? A trophy? Or do they just know they do? I know I do because I have been through a lot, and I have changed a lot to become the person I want to be though I still have a ways to go.
I am more alpha than you give me credit for. Of course it doesn't really matter what you think, your just an anonymous internet user judging my character based on a few posts, and it may sound like whining, but really im just venting. Alpha men can't whine, but they can vent when the beta men around them just constantly talk about how awesome their gf's are or the sex was last night. My goals are different, I realize it now when its late, but better late than never. As for settling for someone who won't reject me, im sure that worked out for you, but no thanks for me, I can't bring myself compromise on my standards.
I read your topic and felt bad, then I read your admiration for people running around "having sex" and that went out the window.
With that said, stunningly beautiful women are attracted to me, while you're enjoying your hand.
How does it feel?
As I said repeatedly in this post, I have no admiration for them, they annoy me and even though mr. buisnessmajorparty24/7's success rate shouldn't affect me, it does get to me when him and everyone else are having romance and fun while im not. It makes me feel lonely and I can't control that feeling, im human.
If that's really what your situation is than good for you. I wish I could do that, and I will, I just need to be at the right place and develop my skills some more. Though there are some great people here, its just not that kind of environment.
A lot of you guys on here must have great friends, great SO's, and a great life in general in addition to doing all the pre med stuff. I admire that and wish I could have that as well. Im not "blaming" being a pre med on my lack of good grades, or lack of anything else. Im blaming my work ethic and study habits because they suck, and I don't really feel like being social anymore because of that. I want to be the best I can for med school, but not be lonely as well. Things haven't always gone smooth for me as they may have for you guys. I didn't realize the importance grades until later, I didn't realize what it took to become a doctor until later. As stupid as this may sound, ive never actually been good at balancing and time management. Ive always been the procrastinator and had no motivation to do work. Thankfully I have some now and I hope to change my studying habits.
If anyone has been where I am and found a way to improve their study/work ethic I would greatly appreciate it.
Like I said earlier I may find love, or maybe I never will. I guess I just have a misconception of what love is after living in the place. Im not saying that people here aren't in love, but I guess being around a group of friends who have always had gf's has never really helped me develop myself in that area, and they aren't the most academically motivated people either which has led me down the wrong path. Though they are great friends, I need to be with people who have the same goals as I do, and who I can relate too.
At least I know now that as long as I strive towards achieving my main goals, at the end of the day, I will just be a good looking doctor, and that honestly doesn't sound so bad.
Wow this post is long, I gotta work on shortening them.
and you will meet all kinds of people. Don't worry about it and before you know it you'll be walking into Tiffany and co wondering what the hell you are thinking too.
