Just wanted to say, I totally relate to your sentiment.
3rd year is really weird. After 5 months, I'm trying to take the attitude that I am in fact learning something, though its very different from what I was expecting to learn. At times, I really struggle to identify what that something is.
In many ways, the biggest lesson I'm learning is emotional stability. (Oh, he's crazy your thinking.) Seriously though, its a skill to be able to stay engaged and to keep showing up with some enthusiasm, even when you feel like no one is noticing and your main function is to ensure that the wallpaper stays securely attached. I'm trying to cultivate that skill.
I've found in general that attendings live on a planet that is too far away from Earth for me effectively contact. While interns and residents generally live on a planet that I can actually communicate with, and perhaps even vist occasionally. I try to identify the interns/residents who I think I might actually connect with, and then look for ways to engage them in something meaningful.
I can't say I'm very successful at this strategy, but I'm sort of desperate at this point.
bth