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Hi all,
Today I made a big mistake at work. Gave a diabetic cat the wrong type of insulin. Lantus instead of Humurin. 8 units. Correct dosage, wrong insulin. I feel completely utterly stupid and incompetent and the only reason I am not ready to shoot myself in the head is because the diabetic cat is alright. His BG went down, but still a healthy range. My manager and the head vet considered firing me, but they decided not to..I don't know what the sentence will be until tomorrow when I go to work because they had already gone home (it was around 730pm) today.
I just want the cat to be okay, so a probation or getting written up isn't a big deal to me. I'll get over it. But this experience has completely sunk me down to a place where I just want to hide in a corner and repeat to myself "I'm not good enough I'm not good enough I'm not good enough". Sure I've made a couple mistakes at work before, but never anything that endangered the life of the animal. I thought I was always careful and thorough when it came to anything that would hurt an animal. I feel like I am in no shape to even think of applying to vet schools this year, let alone someday becoming a vet. How do I get over this funk??
I really hope I don't cry tomorrow in front of my boss. Hate crying in public, especially in such a vulnerable state. Bleh.
Today I made a big mistake at work. Gave a diabetic cat the wrong type of insulin. Lantus instead of Humurin. 8 units. Correct dosage, wrong insulin. I feel completely utterly stupid and incompetent and the only reason I am not ready to shoot myself in the head is because the diabetic cat is alright. His BG went down, but still a healthy range. My manager and the head vet considered firing me, but they decided not to..I don't know what the sentence will be until tomorrow when I go to work because they had already gone home (it was around 730pm) today.
I just want the cat to be okay, so a probation or getting written up isn't a big deal to me. I'll get over it. But this experience has completely sunk me down to a place where I just want to hide in a corner and repeat to myself "I'm not good enough I'm not good enough I'm not good enough". Sure I've made a couple mistakes at work before, but never anything that endangered the life of the animal. I thought I was always careful and thorough when it came to anything that would hurt an animal. I feel like I am in no shape to even think of applying to vet schools this year, let alone someday becoming a vet. How do I get over this funk??
I really hope I don't cry tomorrow in front of my boss. Hate crying in public, especially in such a vulnerable state. Bleh.