The axe of autonomy must rip at the root of doctors' dependence on the fickle medical profession for career and life satisfaction and financial security. Medicine should be an individual's second profession.
I found this article to be very insightful. I have worked with physicians in clinical settings and administrative settings, all while taking my gap years following graduation. Physician burnout is real! Many physicians are in debt because of their young age and lack of 'real-life' experience, leaving them victim to working a job they once loved due to fear of financial failure. This is definitely something to consider because I've had the thoughts of being "behind" and realized that this isn't a race. This is a marathon; to pursue a career you enjoy for as long as possible while helping as many people possible without ruining the relationships of those closest to you.
Keep up the grind and let the marathon continue!