Most of the time the decisions we make are straightforward
if the patient is not sick, essentially, he or she can be discharged and followed up with a primary care physician. If they are sickthey get intubated, lines, meds, etc and admitted to the ICUeasy. Todays patient was a 48-year-old man with gastric cancer who presented to the emergency department in respiratory distress, vomiting, heart rate 140s, blood pressure 90/50 mm Hg and no advanced directives. My first instinct as an EM physician--secure the airway and start IV fluidsbasic stabilization before doing anything else. I wonder why his heart rate is so fast? Why is he hypotensive? Does he have a pulmonary embolism? Is he bleeding somewhere? CT scan time? He vomits and cannot lie down. I give an antiemetic. No change. I try an nasogastric tube. It doesnt go and he vomits again. Desat to the 70s; I pull the tube. What next? Why dont we intubate him then we can do all of the necessary tests.
I convince the attending that this is the right plan. I realize he is a great candidate for nasotracheal intubation so I go over to another attending who is the queen of nasotracheal intubation and ask, Want to nasotracheal intubate a patient with me? Sure, she says. We walk over to the patient and the first thing she asks is, Why are you going to intubate himthat is the last thing I would do. I was confused. The attending saw my patient differently than I hadshe saw an end-stage cancer patient with little chance of survival. She saw a tube going in but never coming out. She saw a family that would spend the last days with a brother, son, father, who could not speak due to this tube in his mouth--slowly drifting towards death. What are some other options?
Supportive care.
Can we drain fluid from his distended belly to allow for better lung expansion and easier breathing? Impossiblehis belly was not filled with fluid, rather it was solid tumor. What about draining the fluid that accumulated in his chest? Also impossible, a needle in his thorax had a better chance for a liver biopsy than draining fluidhis anatomy was so distorted that his abdominal organs monopolized most of his thorax.
What does the patient want? I ask him. Lets fight a little longer, he says. What does that mean? Do you want us to breathe for you, I ask. Chances are youll die with the tube in you. The patient responds slowly, just give me the oxygen and ask my family what to do. I asked him gently if anybody ever had a conversation with him about this momentous momentthe moment you have to think hard about how you want to die. No, he said. I excused myself and walked to the waiting room to speak with his family. Your brother will stop breathing in the next 12 to 24 hours, I said. I tried to be empathetic, but clear about his options. We can put in a breathing tube, which will probably never come out. He will be sedated and wont be able to speak with you. Or we can let him stop breathing on his own and make him feel good while this happens. What do you think he would want? With little hesitation, his family members say in chorus, put him on the morphine drip.
Five sisters, a niece, and a mother make their way to my patients bedside to comfort him and each other.
I just negotiated the death of another human being.
Am I trained for this? Can anyone be trained for this moment? Can we predict the end of life? Should we? What if I had insisted upon an intubation? Would this have changed the patients outcome? How would it have affected the life of the entire family?
My patient walked into the hospital a little short of breath thinking he suffered from a bad cold. He was hoping for a little relief--maybe some antibiotics and fluids. Instead he had to decide if this would be the last day of his life. He was only 48. He died at the end of my shift.
How does it feel to make such an incredible decision? How did my patient and his family make the decision so quickly? What could I have done better? How can I ever understand what that moment feels like to the patient?
Posted at: nyemergencymedicine.blogspot.com
I convince the attending that this is the right plan. I realize he is a great candidate for nasotracheal intubation so I go over to another attending who is the queen of nasotracheal intubation and ask, Want to nasotracheal intubate a patient with me? Sure, she says. We walk over to the patient and the first thing she asks is, Why are you going to intubate himthat is the last thing I would do. I was confused. The attending saw my patient differently than I hadshe saw an end-stage cancer patient with little chance of survival. She saw a tube going in but never coming out. She saw a family that would spend the last days with a brother, son, father, who could not speak due to this tube in his mouth--slowly drifting towards death. What are some other options?
Supportive care.
Can we drain fluid from his distended belly to allow for better lung expansion and easier breathing? Impossiblehis belly was not filled with fluid, rather it was solid tumor. What about draining the fluid that accumulated in his chest? Also impossible, a needle in his thorax had a better chance for a liver biopsy than draining fluidhis anatomy was so distorted that his abdominal organs monopolized most of his thorax.
What does the patient want? I ask him. Lets fight a little longer, he says. What does that mean? Do you want us to breathe for you, I ask. Chances are youll die with the tube in you. The patient responds slowly, just give me the oxygen and ask my family what to do. I asked him gently if anybody ever had a conversation with him about this momentous momentthe moment you have to think hard about how you want to die. No, he said. I excused myself and walked to the waiting room to speak with his family. Your brother will stop breathing in the next 12 to 24 hours, I said. I tried to be empathetic, but clear about his options. We can put in a breathing tube, which will probably never come out. He will be sedated and wont be able to speak with you. Or we can let him stop breathing on his own and make him feel good while this happens. What do you think he would want? With little hesitation, his family members say in chorus, put him on the morphine drip.
Five sisters, a niece, and a mother make their way to my patients bedside to comfort him and each other.
I just negotiated the death of another human being.
Am I trained for this? Can anyone be trained for this moment? Can we predict the end of life? Should we? What if I had insisted upon an intubation? Would this have changed the patients outcome? How would it have affected the life of the entire family?
My patient walked into the hospital a little short of breath thinking he suffered from a bad cold. He was hoping for a little relief--maybe some antibiotics and fluids. Instead he had to decide if this would be the last day of his life. He was only 48. He died at the end of my shift.
How does it feel to make such an incredible decision? How did my patient and his family make the decision so quickly? What could I have done better? How can I ever understand what that moment feels like to the patient?
Posted at: nyemergencymedicine.blogspot.com
