To Roadrunner, bozz, Vihsadas, etc...
You are amazing. Not because of your great scores and not because of your logic; you are amazing for the sincere compassion you show with each post. Thank God that people like you choose to go into medicine, because we need doctors with your understanding of and compassion for the human psyche.
A thread like this is filled with many people wanting to share how well they did with a group of people who can relate. Face it, you can't really go into a McDonalds with an ear-to-ear grin and tell the person next you in line that you're happy as a clam over a 38 on the MCAT. So people come here to
share/brag/debrief over the experience and ultimately the score. Unfortunately, this thread follows the same trend we see when people report back their scores to us.
- Wave 1: The ecstatic over achievers with their 35+ scores
Wave 2: The should I retake it? crowd with their 28-32 and one low subject score.
Wave 3: After a few days, come the "I just don't know what happened to me" people. They get between 23 and 31 after expecting a much higher score.
The reality is that the Wave 3 people are the ones who go on to be some of the most amazing doctors. I have to believe that because they have to work so hard for it (retake the MCAT or spice up their application with amazing extracurics) that they appreciate the experience so much more. The ones who scraped into medical school according to the numbers end up doing some amazing things once they become doctors. Off of the top of my head there is a summer camp for disabled kids, a free clinic in Costa Mesa, a mobile medical team that goes into migrant farm worker camps, and too many international aid teams to think of that center around some former students who were Wave 3 people.
The MCAT is just a test and the score is just a number. I realize that taking pride in a high number is natural, but don't let the number define you. Despite all we make of this test, the number plays a role in your life for a very short period of time. Celebrate a good score, but don't use it as a calling card. Augment your applicant profile if you have a low score and don't let it discourage you. You want to be a doctor, not a number!
I checked my score a while ago and did horribly. I've cried soo much that my head hurts...I'm just soo freakin tired of this ****.
I want this soo bad and after getting my score back I feel like my dream of becoming a doctor is offcially over.
btw I got freaking 23. Even if I retake it and do better, won't they look at my score and think, what happened?
I'm soo very very tired...
Cry as much as you need to... then, once you feel
dried out, walk away from this site and all of the things that tie you to the premedical community. Take a few days to contemplate not what it means to be a premed, but what it means to be a doctor. Being a doctor is more than a high undergrad GPA; it's more than an MCAT score. It's so much more than what we focus on at this point of the pathway. Once you feel that, starting to study for this exam again will be made easier. At that point, you need to make wholesale changes in your approach to this exam.
I feel like telling the story of a former student who probably parallels your tale. I met her about five years ago. I was doing one of those damn sales pitch seminars where all of the companies come and tell outrageous stories of how great their programs are and how you'll get taller, stronger, smarter, have a prettier smile and be a better person by simply taking our course. She came up and said she had taken the test the past summer and got a 23. She had spent her own money to take a review course and felt like she'd wasted so much time and money. We ended up talking for about an hour and a half. By the end of the conversation, it was apparent that she wanted to do medicine more than anything in the world and she had one of the more heartfelt reasons I have ever heard. We sat down a few days later and laid out a seemingly crazy plan that involved
NO reading. She was to simply do passages in groups of theree to four and then grade them without looking at the answer key. If she got anything wrong, she repeated the question with just the three remaining answer choices. She again graded it. She repeated any questions she missed, now with just two answer choices remaining. Only then did she read the answer key. For any question she missed, I made her rank the answers choices from best to worst. Also, for every question she missed, I had her write a new question with four answer choices. A month or so later, she repeated the passage and did
her questions. She absolutely worked her azz off. She ended up getting a 32 the next time around. Right now, she's an MSIII who is incredibly active in outreach. She's going to make a huge difference in people's lives.
You can do what she did... it will take work and it will require approaching the exam from a completely different path. But alas, if you do it right and learn the thought process behind this test more so than the information, you will kick its butt.